1,000 secrets

170) i think im pregnant.

171) the father is 19 and way older than me but hes sweet and i love him with all my heart

172) im thinking about running away

173) i cut

174) im not ready for a kid

175) im scared to death of being a mom

176) i think abortions are murder

177) im scared of life and everything in it

178) i cant function anymore

179) i cant live like this.

180.) im soooo in love

181.) im flirtatious when i shouldn't be to certain people

182.) i hang around the craziest people

183.) Sometimes i think things get too complicated

184.) i don't like his mama

185) i got arrested yesterday for something i didnt do. i was at the wrong place at the wrong time.

186) im goingg to "alternative" school. and now my lifes ruined & i cant dance anymore at the arts school i was at.

187) my mom hates me. and i think im getting sent to live with my alcoholic father.

188) im a screw up.

189) im scared he will leave me again

190) im scared that he wont want me or our son like he did last year

191) im scared of getting pregant again

192.) i have 2 sides of me

193.) one is very sensitive

194.) one is not

194.) i resent my family

195.) and i think i want to resent my relationship even though this is only going to last a bit until i might be happy again who knows when

196) I have been with my boy friend for 3 weeks and already i want to sleep with him

197) My boyfriend leaves me at the end of the year to go live on the other side of the ocean

198) I used to cut myself

199) I am scared shitless of what will happen to me when he leaves me

200.) He was going to wait till he left to break up with me.

201.) He didn't.

202.) I hate him every minute for the pain I'm in now.

203. I've been in counseling and it didn't help at all

204. I suffer from sever depression problems

205. I'm setting myself up to get seriously hurt and I don't really care anymore

206. I'm angry and hurt and resent the fact that he's broken so many promises to me even though I tell him it's ok and that I understand

207. I panic when people get to close because I'm scared they won't love me or will hurt me

208. I like acting like an ice queen and keeping people away, even people I love dearly

209. I'm terrorfied of rejection

210. I've thought about leaving the man I love because I'm scared and I'm tired

211. I don't know if I can keep up the act of being ok and being strong much longer

212. I still resent my ex boyfriend and what he did to me still hurts after 3 years

213. I don't want to forgive him anymore

219. I hate this world most of the time.
220. I dislike a lot of people.
221. I talk a lot because i feel like silence will swallow me up.
222. I'm so scared.

223). I'm scared of heights.
224). I dont trust easily. And sometimes I hate myself for that.
225). Sometimes I think I Dont have alot of friends.
226). Wish that my life would become a fairytale.

227) im too loving
228) i can see the future in my dreams
229) i love cheese too much
230) i wish i didnt have the friends i have

231. I feel fat after half a sandwhich. :/
232. I started working out crazzyyyy
233. Sometimes I try too hard to look cute. o wo;
234. I get tired horridly easily.

235. i can't lose something i don't have. but i feel like i have him, and i am losing him.

1. I'm in love with a guy who I'm pretty sure likes me. But won't say anything.
2. I'm too chicken to tell him I like him.
3. I've cut myself for almost four years.
4. I wear a fake smile to try & make everyone happy. But of course it doesn't work.

1. i enjoy the drama in my life...even when it should hurt.
2. i dont think i believe in love.
3. i wanted his baby
4. i think im fat, ugly and repulsive even tho ppl say im not.
5. i want to overdose.
6. noone knows i spent 2 months in a mental hospital for trying to commit suicide.
7. i cant stay with one person for long cause i get bored of the relationship.
8. i feel like ive never been truly loved.
9. i feel alone and sad all the time.
10. i stay alive for my brothers kids.

249. i have convinced myself i am able to live without him
250. i am sure he will cheat on me
251. i say i dont believe in marriage but really i want him to propose to me

I dream i can fly, then wonder why i can't when i wake up..!

253. I'm so scared to tell my best friend that I've liked him for years, because I don't want to ruin the amazing friendship we already have.

254) Sometimes i wonder if my dad dies will i even cry, will i even care?

255) I hate it when people expect so much from me.

256) At the end of the day, i know i am not satisfied with a lot of things.

257) People tend to perceive me as the happy chick who has no problems, but they don't know that its because all my problems go once i leave my house, and thats why i am happy.

258) I often lie to people because im afraid to admit the truth to myself, and lying to people about it makes it so much more believable

259) Sometimes I wish I had the strength to tell my mom how I feel about what my life was like growing up

260) I wish I could be in my boyfriends arms right now

261) I wish it didn't seem like my mom favors my little sister

262) Wish I was 18 and when I am to have the strength and not be afraid to leave home

263) I wish I didn't have to live with my mom

264) wish I wasn't afraid to speak how I feel

267] I wasn't there to say goodbye before she died. At the end, I wasn't there the times when she needed me most. I could not have been more selfish. It eats away at me daily.

268] I detest my mom's parents. I have heard too many awful stories about them. My mom should've saved the stories for when I was older so they wouldn't be cemented in my brain like they are.

269] I think I have a bad heart and won't live long enough because of it.

270] Human babies gross me out. I don't like them to touch me.

271] I would like to marry my best friend.

272] Watching my dad get older gives me occasional panic attacks. I don't want him to die before I accomplish everything he's ever wanted for me. I want him to die feeling like he created something beautiful that will fill the gap of his existence - me.

273] I know my dad only wants the best for me, but sometimes I notice myself living my life for him.

274] Most choices I make feel like mistakes. Writing that made me grin.

275.) I am jealous of my best friend.

276.) I feel like no one sees me past a friend, when I just want to be loved.

277.) I flip my mom off behind her back when she makes me angry.

278.) I am actually a pretty terrible person.

279.) I flip my mom off behind her back when she makes me angry too.

280.) I am afraid of dying.

281.) Instead of doing homework I get on the computer lol ... like now.

282.) People are too nice to me 'cause I can be really mean.

283.) I really miss my old group of popular friends because I remember how much fun we had.

284.) I feel like nobody cares about me.

285.) I sometimes wonder what my purpose in life is.

286.)I like fighting even though I act like a pacifist

287.)I have problems with my anger sometimes

288.)I have health problems

289.)I don't want to go to heaven or hell. I just want to be able to observe the world.

290.)I love my ex with all my heart and would do anything for her, but I also see her an escape from my current situation.

297. Sometimes I fantasize about my house burning down, so I could start with a clean slate and without so many things.

298. But then I take it back, because I would lose all my books. Too many luxuries I don't want to give up.

299. I feel like I'm failing miserably at being a "responsible adult."

300. It can be so hard for me to do small tasks, like clean my room, go to the store, bake cookies. I'm drowning in lethargia.

301. I'm worried that I'll ruin my relationship by worrying about ruining it.

It probably is!!

302) have a crush on a girl in work (i swear im too old for crushes)

303) i like breaking dishes- plates, glasses, you name it

[304] I fantasize about disappearing into the wild like Christopher McCandless. Someday, I'm going to do it.

[305] Whenever I'm going on a long trip by car, I'll stare out into the woods and pretend I'm with some guy I really like traveling or riding horses. It makes time fly.

[306] I will play my Ipod super loud and pretend I'm in a music video with the person that sings the song. Lol.

"[304] I fantasize about disappearing into the wild like Christopher McCandless. Someday, I'm going to do it."

ha ha... that's a nice one, hope u pack enough food

(307) i have a serious fear of getting stuck in my eye with a needle or something ... *shivers*

[308] i really want to believe there is a land called middle earth

1.) I'm more self conscience than people think
2.) I have a bf but I like it when other guys say they like me
3.) Girls can really get on my nerve with their wining (lol sorry girls)

those are some secrets i suppose lol

309. My best friend and I argue every day. On days that we're alright, he'll press my buttons to the extent that we end up arguing again. Despite our arguments, we have a bond like no other, and will always sort things out. At times when our friendship is at its peak, I feel a part of me just wants to spend the rest of my life with him. And its when he looks at me, with eyes full of love for the friendship we have, that I mistake it for the same way I sometimes feel about him. A feeling that will always stay with me, and one that he will never know.

314-- I always seem happy on the outside, but on the inside I am sad and depressed ...

315-- I don't know who I am anymore.

316- I used to be in deep depression.

317- I used to cut myself. I stopped now.

318- I have the best boyfriend now, than I have ever had.

319- Anyone who has a problem with depression, cutting, or sadness, should come and talk to me(:

320 -- I still love my ex-boyfriend and I will never get over him.

321.) I've lost all faith in love existing.

322.) I don't think I'll ever reach my potential as a writer because I don't know how to stop being a kid.

323.) i really do care, every time i see you with my friend... hugging and loving... it hurts. truth is i still love you

1. Most of the time I feel alone even when I'm with lots of people.. Even when I'm with my nubby and son.

2. I hate it when guys call me sexy.. It makes me wanna slap them so bad.

3. I love the smell of mud.

4. I can't stand. Most of my family.. They always fought and drink