1,000 secrets

1. i hide from the people i care for most
2. i hide some of the ones i care for most from others
3.i can't do anyhting, even something nice or giving without feeling guilty ("why did i give him money? i saw someone down the street who could have needed it more" for example)
4. my parents think i stopped cutting about 3 years ago
5 i'm at the point where i will run in front of a car to get that rush of feeling alive
6. lately memories have been surfacing and i can't fight them away like before, i was molested at 6 yrs of age
7. because of the memories, evrything's getting worse and i feel like i'm going to break
8. my parent's don't know that that's why i'm so pulled away from guys
9. i question my sexuality
10. i don't talk about half of my health problems hoping they will weaken me enough for me to not have to end my life by my hands
11. i want to live
12. i trust more of you on here whom i have never met more than i trust those closest to me...
13. this isn't even half of the day-to-day things i fight with

1. I haven't wrote poetry in years
2. I'm afraid to be alone
3. I'm a nervous reck half the time

344--> i am still madly in love with my first ever guy

345--->i flirt with alot of guy because i wanna be loved and wanted

346---->people think i live a wonderful life when i sometimes think & wonder why i am even alive

347) I welcome death :)

348) I see a 'ghost' sporadically, she always looks the same and sometimes talks wishing me to join her.

349) I'm sometimes afraid to be seen with people, but go out with them anyway because I care enough about them and then I realize I shouldn't care what other people think.

350) I'm in love with two people.

1.i am absolutely terrified of puking
2.it stems from being molested repeatdly.
3.i still love my ex gf
4.im a single teen mom
5.i have the mind of an anorexic but am starting to get a grip on it
6.i cry easy
7.use to cut years ago
8.i laugh easyy:)

1. I am lost