please help me...I don't want to give in

I havn't self harmed in almost 2 months and it's getting really hard to control my thoughts, somehow, even when nothing is going that wrong I'll just want to so bad...and when things are wrong...well it's worse. and I even found myself with a razor in my hand the other day ready to give in. someone please tell me what I can do to help myself...I know alot of you have been through this. Iv'e just come too far to start it all over, I want to be done for good. If I let go and give in I know It will be really bad, cause I know the feeling all to well and i'm afraid what I'm capable of now will take me down all the way. I don't want to fall that far...please...can anyone tell me somthing that might help?

I dont know if this will help but i will try cos im in the same exact sitution. I havnt cut for a week and that may not sound long but for me its a massive challenge.
When im tempted I listen to loud music and just sit and cry. Its pathetic but it works :$ or i go to the gym or for a jog to get my anger/upset out of my system. If u want help or just wanna tlk when u next feel tempted email me at cinders2475@aol.com

Stay strong love Kate x~X~x

thanks Kate I might just do that

to me, there are certain stages when you are quitting cutting.

the first stage you are hesitant, and you stop for other people.

the second stage you are stronger, and you are willing to stop for the better of yourself. but you will still go back to it from time to time, noones perfect.

the third stage, you are much stronger, you realize what you have...friends, councelors willing to help, and a stronger will which will help you through it.

right now, you are at the second stage of my cutting chart thingie. you just need to find those true friends that will listen to you, not judge you, and possibly help you. plenty of people on here have been through it too, and are available to e-mail/chat. talking to someone always kept my mind off of it.

just stay strong and keep that frame of mind.

thanks. I think your right, exept I really have no one right now. I have a really great best friend...but she's like halfway across the world right now, I'm in Germany all summer so I feel pretty alone, I'm really glad there are people willing to help that know what I'm going through though.

well, just keep talkin to her through the phone or msn.

what part of germany are you in?

I live on a military base, it would be awesome if you were at the same place!

Karlsruhe

hmmm...well, I have no idea where that is.

I'm kinda in the same situation with the friend thing. My best friend is in virginia havin fun without me =( but I like coming to this site because a lot of people understand me.

but, now that your somewhere for the whole summer (thats a long time) you should go out and meet new people. Germans can be pretty cool sometimes.

Is there any one you can talk to about this? Friend, family member?

Renee- Karlsruhe is near Frankfurt if you know where that is. where are you? and yeah your right about making new friends, I already have, because I go to school here. but of course I can't talk to them about it, I hardly know them...

Crimson Tears- right now there isn't anyone I can talk too. and my family doesn't know about this and I don't want them too, it would only make things worse...

ooo i think frankfurt is pretty near here...I'm in bitburg/spangdahlem/ramstein any of those names ring a bell? well thats where i live around.

about your friends your making...make an effort to get to know them. ya never know, I thought nobody knew what I was going through but it turned out a lot of my now close friends were going through the exact same thing. you just have to be willing to open up to people. I know thats kinda hard to trust people so easily, but I guess if you don't take the risk you'll never gain anything.

yeah...true...but I'll only be in this school a couple more weeks, and I just didn't want people to know me that way, you know?

and yeah those do sound familiar, I'm not sure how close though