depression poetry contest

In the Rain

The nights in the corner
Tears lying upon her pale cheeks
Her pain feeding poison
Her soul crying shrieks

While searching for peace
In a world that makes her suffer
And looking for an escape
From those around her

And it never stops raining
Inside her head
The pain that's draining
Continues to spread
It is almost surreal
The pain too much to heal
If your hell was due,
How would you feel?
If that was you?

The world
Killing her inside
Blood to the bone
From her eyes that dried

Her dreams she once held close
She can't reassemble
As they became her ghost

It never stops raining
Inside her head
The pain that's draining
Continues to spread
It is almost surreal
The pain too much to heal
If your hell was due,
How would you feel?
If that was you?

How would you feel?
If that was you?

Cant you see I'm hurting
Inside this body, Burning
Wishing to be someone else, yearning
Cant you see I'm hurting?

When will this heart ache end
When will I find that one true friend
That will be there each road bend
And in time of need helping hand she'll lend

The walls are quickly closing in around me
In this vast ocean of tears you'll see,
All the things I wish I could be
Joyfully, Poetic, Pretty, or Free...

My past has yet to be forgot
All my mistakes, yeah I've made a lot
Every argument or fight I fought
Led me right here, not at all what I thought

I wish I could glimmer and shine like the rest
Make people laugh and be one of the best
But the thought brings pain to my chest
For sorrow that will never rest

All other girls just stride with confidence
Like they make the world fit, make sense
Oh if only I could be the one to get a chance
To be fought over just to go to a dance

Cant you see I'm hurting
Inside this body, Burning
Wishing to be someone else, yearning
Cant you see I'm hurting?

Puddle of Tears (Double Etheree)

So
Here I
Lie in my
Puddle of tears
Wishing you were here
To wipe away these fears
With my head upon your lap
With your hand stroking me on my back
With things back to the way they used to be

When you’d comfort me in your arms and say
Not to fret ‘cause things would be okay
How’d you always know that they would?
As you’d kiss me on my head
Each time there to save me
From sinking in sobs
But without you
Mom, surely
I will
Drown

My poem is titled " My fault "

You see perfection in all my flaws
Yet you dont see, you are the cause
Trying to hide them is like an addiction
I bare the pain of my own Affliction

You think my naturally beauty is hidden,
To bring out the truth, & whats real ...forbidden
For me, its hard, a contradiction,
I bare the pain of my own affliction

You cant see something Ive masked so well
So many dark secrets, which Ill never tell.
Anything but Perfection, is my depiction
I bare the pain of my own affliction

You see perfection in all my flaws
I Bare the pain of my own affliction

Copyright © 2005 Samantha

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this is a Kyrielle poem, which has a specific sceme to it... well thankyou and please comment on my poem anyone who likes it.. thanks!

I'll Cry Tonight

I'll wait for the sky to turn dark,
That's when I'll take off my mask,
Pain and loneliness will fill my eyes,
And slowly erase my fake smile.

I'll cry when no one's arround,
Cause I don't want them to find out,
The weakness that lives within me,
The feeling that makes me incomplete.

I don't speak the tears of my soul,
Cause that's all they need to know,
To try their best to make the worst,
To make my nightmare, be so close.

And if there's someone who reallly cares,
It doesn't matter cause no one understands,
So they'll never hear from me,
Cause to share pain, there's no need.

So I will smile right now,
And I'll cry tonight,
Just right now, I'll seem alright,
I'll just hold my tears tight.

Sadness and pain seek me,
They will not leave me alone.
As I seek out the sun,
I hear a silent drone.
It seems my heart has broken,
And my soul torn apart,
It seems I may not find this light,
That hides from my heart.
I scream your name,
Begging for your attention once more,
I have now just given up;
I will not even try to open that door.

Pain sears through my body,
As I scream out in rage,
I've taken my final step,
Off of this ledge.
Now no one can stop me,
Though no one would try,
So I die by means,
Of suicide.

See what you've done to me,
Broken me apart?
I could take no more;
It has shattered my heart.

Silhouettes of night give me unforgiven peace
I feel weak as I hold my own knees
I escaped from depression,but now it's haunting me
All I know is it'll never be

You can't run from your emotions
No matter where you hide
Because they're always with you
On the inside

I tried to escape
And looked what's happened
Now while I'm crying
Everyone's laughing

I'm broken but I'm beautiful
I draw marker on my wrists
I will not cut,I will not cut
I keep saying this

As imaginary blood flows
I feel that made-up release
And once again
I can breathe

This imaginary freedom is the one thing that's true
So if everyone's reading this,
I ain't new
So please forgive me if I've hurt you
I've made my own demise
Just another story
Hidden in life's lies.

Have you ever lost a loved one
Said goobye instead of goodnight?
Have you looked into their eyes
To find that love was no longer alite?

Have you ever loved so dearly
That you could not live without
Only to be left alone,
Left feeling empty, and with doubt.

Have you ever feared the worst
But hoped for the best
Only to be let down entirely
Shutdown and put to rest.

Have you watched the one person
Whom you loved and adored
The only one you trusted
In the whole wide world

Betray your trust and love
Leave you broken hearted
Tear down everything you've ever known
And so gracefully, parted.

Well thanks to you my love
I have been through all of these
You've tooken my whole life with you
Yet to my heart you hold The keys

I dont know I feel this way,
And I dont know how to explain it.
But even after betrayal and hurt,
My love for you is infinate.

This life isn't what I need,
So I will leave it now,
More pain to myself I feed,
Some ask the question how,

I need to go, I'm sorry for this,
So, me don't try to save,
Causing you pain, so please don't miss,
The love I never gave,

A selfish life, I chose to live,
But what are you gonna do,
So many things I couldn't give,
I'm not meant for you,

Love so strong, it holds the knife,
And moves it along my skin,
Now it's time to take my life,
And live without this sin,

No more love, so I choose to die,
And live without this pain,
Without you in my life, I live a lie,
I'm really just not the same,

So now I say my final goodbye,
As I look in the mirror at my face,
I don't deserve to live, but die,
I'm a coward and a disgrace

I think this is the best Depressed poem I have. Please note: The word "RAIN" is used alot as sybolism in this poem. (Alot of peopole didnt get that) ^_^ Thank you

The Difference Between Rain And Tears
by Loving_A_Lie†

The tears that escape from my eyes,
Match the rain that falls outside.
Looking at the window, watching the rain.
Not seeing the window, not looking at the rain that falls.
How could you come back after you
Caused me all this pain?
You did this to yourself
You are the only one to blame.
The words that are, "I Hate You"
Could never be enough
To express the sorrow that you've grown
Inside the heart I thought was unbreakable.
The rain falls but what does it mean?
It feels like the world is sad because I am...
This could never be true,
Like you, the world has never
Cared for me like it pretends to.
Because you're in my life,
Is the reason this pain is killing me.
Rotting me from inside...
This hurt, Powerful pain...
It has nowhere to go
Like me... Thats why we belong together.
Pain and me, Me and pain...
The pain you planted in my soul,
So that I could loose the very notion of love...
Causing peptic ulcers,
Causing the taste of blood,
This pain, Killing me from inside..
The rain on my window... My tears on the sill...

Your Angel, My Demon
by ~Łost ₣airy~

She, she and she,
That's all you ever thought about,
What about us,
Do you even care about us?

You are not doing her any good,
You know she's such a nuisance,
So why are you making her worst,
Are you trying to turn her into a b****?

Well if that's so,
Then she's one already,
You say she's just a little girl,
Why must we fight with her?

It's not that we love to create trouble,
But she's one evil little girl,
Can't you see what she's trying to do,
Making our life into a living hell.

She's crazy, can't you see,
She seriously needs to see a psychologist,
I've never seen a girl screaming for no reason,
Why don't you just send her to one?

She's your little angel,
But my little devil,
Let's just see where she'll end up,
In heaven or in hell.

Fires burn my soul until it is gone,
It's night to me, whether day or dawn.
Tears fall down my cheeks onto the cold ground,
Darkness takes over when no one's around.
Look in the mirror, and miss the old me,
Before cheerful, now depressed and edgy.
My cheeks are red, my eyes puffy from tears,
What has happened to me over the years?
I feel as if no one cares anymore,
People laugh and call me a s**t or wh**e,
But they do not even know me at all,
They want to see the mighty Erika fall.
They love watching me cry, and walk alone,
My sadness has become so dang well known,
Someday you'll see that you pushed me too far,
But the things that you said will leave a scar.
Someday you'll hear that I'm finally dead,
Cause I let what you said go to my head.
Bet you won't cry when I lay underground,
Bet you will just think,"Oh well, she's Hell bound".

~*Who Cares?*~

Emotional Pain
by â—Š Atomic â—Š

She never once thought of herself,
When she's helping others around.
She never ceases to smile for you,
Even when she's the one feeling down.

She lent you her shoulder to cry on,
When your closest friend didn't care.
Each time you're in need of comforting,
She was always the first one there.

You never took the time to know her,
But she never hesitated to be by your side.
You never knew the pain she went through.
You never knew how much she hurt inside.

No one ever cared enough to ask her,
But she never once dared to complain.
No one ever cared enough to care that,
She's slowly dying from emotional pain.

Each night she cried herself to sleep,
Her pillow soaked with heartaches.
Each day she smiled bravely for you,
Though she still suffered from heart break.

Her eyes displayed so much pain,
But you only saw what you chose to see.
The happy, smiling, beautiful woman,
Not the scared little girl hugging her knees.

So she kept on pretending that she'll be okay,
And you kept on ignoring the fact that she's not.
So she got tired of waiting and took her own life,
Left a note written in blood "To all, thanks a lot."

( )_( )
(='.'=)
(")-(") Arrivederci!©

Let me hold you....

Let me hold you one more time before you go to sleep,
Let me rock and tuck you in gently while I tell you of little Bo peep.

Let me twirl your golden brown curls,
While you get hypnotized in your own little world.

Let me love and embrace you from the day,
nothing could ever get in the way.

Let me have just another moment to rub your ears, count your fingers and toes,
I won't ever let this moment go.

My heart was blessed with wings to wrap around your tiny little soul,
Mommy will be here waiting for her turn up to heaven is where you go.

Now I play patty cake to the sky,
I pretend the stars looking down at me are your eyes.

The cool breeze is you soft touch,
Oh my dear little one how I love you so much.

The warm sun is your bright smile,
I can still hear the echo of your giggles for miles.

The moon is how you say I LOVE YOU and kiss me goodnight,
I gaze at the stars one last time before i turn out the light.

Its time your rest and go to sleep, mommy just wanted to hold you one last time before you count you sheep.

5/30/05

(this poem is of a mothers lost)

Christina Chavez© Copyright 2005

(thanks for reading)

The Gray Girl

She lives, in a house
Painted different shades of gray.
Her family, they blend together
With nothing left to say;
It seems, they turned the mute on
And then all walked away,
So she walks through a soulless world
While their silent movies play.
She walks, into a church
Where only church bells ring.
The minister is on mute, too;
No one hears a thing.
The people try to redeem themselves
Through the unheard lyrics they sing,
And they pay their overdue debts to God
With the money that they bring.
So she walks, to a school
Where no one knows her name.
There, there's no variation to the lessons taught;
All the days are the same.
Now she's learned living is her duty,
And nothing's left to gain
Except an appreciation of color
And familiarity with pain.

I cry every night
I live in fright
What if he comes in my room again
I can't act like this is pretend
He hurt me so bad
It seems as though I can never be glad
He took my life away
Now I have to live in grief everyday
I was only fourteen
How could you be so mean
You raped me
Are you happy
Now all I can be is sappy
I feel as though I can't anymore
You destroyed my life hardcore
I hope you know what you have done
How could this be fun?
You sick minded freak
Thanks to you i can barely speak
I only have one choice to heal the pain
The pain that hurts so much that I can't even explain
Well good-bye mom
Good-bye dad
Good-bye sis
Please don't be sad
This is for the better
That is why I'm writing you this letter
Every word of this feeling is true
All I can say now is that...
I love you

INFINITE SORROW

Ever increasing pain
threatens to devour
my heart
Regret filled tears
continually fall
from my eyes
Infinite sorrow
invades
my entire being
Will the anguish
someday lessen
or perhaps
proceed to grow
until it consumes
my very soul.

A mistake I made has costs me this,
to be without your tender kiss.
A lie so stupid, an untruth been told.
Just give me your hand, to let me hold.
Making this better is what I'll do.
Just remember my love is true.
I'm sorry for hurting you, I know I was wrong.
My love for you, will always go on.
I let you down, and hurt you bad.
I never meant to make you sad.
You gave me the option, to love or leave it.
I'm still here, so please believe it.
I want you back, more than ever.
Love is like a floating feather.
You never know which way it's going.
Our young love will keep on growing.
Like a rose, beautiful, divine.
I just want you to be mine.
To keep to myself, I want to be greedy.
When it comes to you, I'm very needy.
Needy of your love and care.
To be without you, I cannot bare.
A broke heart, that may not mend.
To fix it for you, I assure to tend.
Every mistake, I pledge to right.
I can't go through another sleepless night.
One more chance I ask to obtain.
And one more chance I hope to gain.
I stayed up late to write you this.
To let you know, you're the one I've missed.

yay 4th place!!!:)
~*Who Cares?*~

Yayness! 5th place!

( )_( )
(='.'=)
(")-(") Arrivederci!

I got second place! Wooo Hoooo!

Thanks:)

how do we know what place we got?

sorry just rain but i got suspended, and have just set up my new account, but i liked your poem alot, can't remember what place i gave you but great work

thanx :)

! sorry to hear that, i hope that it gets better, good luck!