Poetry Contest. Deadline: January 28th

Well, I decided to post a new poetry contest. Woo!

Well, there is no line limit...I like long poems.

Rules:

1] No explicit/slang
2] No line limit
3] No plagiarism...duh.
4] A Poem A Poet

Awards:

1st Place: 10+ comments and 10+ votes, and possibly addition to my favorites, which would supplement many futuristic votes.

2nd Place: 6-7 Comments and votes...slim chance of being added to favorites.

3rd Place: 3-4 Comments & Votes.

Everyone submitting will get comment/vote on poem submitted.

So, submit away!

Best Friends

We became friends, and then without even knowing it
We became the best friends everyone dreams about.
We laughed together, cried together, and even
Told our deepest and darkest secrets to each other.
And trusted one another with everything we had.

We knew that when summer came, our friendship
Would be tested since we lived almost three hours apart.
It was a hard summer, being without your best friend,
But we talked on the phone, and even seen each other
The few times that we could manage to get away.

We finally made it back, back to college where
We could see each other daily and talk.
But then something happened, you started dating a guy,
Who was always there and actually cared about you.
And this affected our friendship more than we thought.

Our first actual fight was the beginning of the end of
What could have been a life long beautiful friendship.
A guy, who would have thought something like that,
Could end an untouchable bond between two people.
I never thought our friendship could end.

Best friends are suppose to rely on each other,
Expect them to be there to help you when life hits you hard,
But that’s when I realized our friendship was in trouble.
When I needed you most, to tell me everything
Would be okay, but you were no where near.

Within one year, two friends once so close, find it hard
To even say hi, much less hold a conversation.
When I left college, you promised we’d still remain close,
But in life’s tragedies and heartaches I realized
We are best friends, but only in a dream.

"apart of me"

For the longest time
My lips were sealed
But my deepest secret
Now revealed

I always wondered
Deep inside
How life would be
By a fathers side

I wish I knew
At least your name
I wish I knew
Just who to blame

I blame myself
I feel as though
It`s all my fault
You didn`t watch me grow

Was I not good enough
To make you stay
Am I the reason
You walked away

You deprived me
Of a fathers love
You deprived me
Of a loving fathers hug

I went through life
Acting as if I didn`t care
That you, my father
Were never there

It bothered me inside
In my heart I knew I was sad
That to me you`re a stranger
The father I never had

Deep in my heart
To fate I plea
To see the man
That is one half apart of me.

Even the Dead
by â—Š Atomic â—Š

"I will wait for you forever",
Her promise rang loud and clear.
And true to her words she kept,
Until the day her death drew near.

He never came back for her,
His words were an empty promise.
But still she waited for his arrival,
Cherishing memories of his kiss.

She never knew he got married,
Had a few children of his own.
When they were moving on together,
She was waiting for him alone.

Now her ghastly figure stood,
Draped in the purest of white lace.
In the midst of all the gravestones,
Still in searching of his face.

He heard of her death years later,
But the news didn't bother him one bit.
He just brought his children along,
For an over due visit.

When she saw him with his family,
Her heart stopped at a final end.
Who would have ever guessed,
Even the dead can die again.

( )_( )
(='.'=)
(")-(") Arrivederci!©

So, I hear you're going out with someone new,
I guess this means we are forever through.
I bet before you know it, I'll just be a memory,
You won't remember a single thing about me.
I never thought the love flame would die,
At least not so soon, but I guess this is goodbye.
So much for getting married, when I turn 18,
But I'll remember everything, from the Rams to the color green.
I knew a lot about you, that I never told,
And I never will, for any amount of gold.
Think back to before we went out,
How when we were together I'd never pout.
We might've been just friends, but we saw eachother a lot,
You never made me cry, but the happiness was shot.
I can't believe I spent the last week,
Writing the perfect letter of words I couldn't speak.
I was up day and night,
Writing in the dark and light.
It's a good thing I checked your myspace,
Before I sent the message, wow what a waste!
I got no sleep, and for what?
To find out it's too late, and the door is shut.
Well, have a nice day, say hi to your girlfriend,
for me, and tell her you'll love her until the end,
Like you did to me...

(btw the whole rams and green things were a couple of his favorite)

~*Who Cares?*~

The fight that changed our lives
I hear the yelling and screaming
I feel the vibrations of the banging
I hear the screams of bad words coming
From your mouth
I hear you say I am leaving and not coming back
You can’t leave just like that you have kids
What are you going to do for the kids?
How do you think we will feel?
Bet you don’t even care
Care that I am hear crying
Care that you are about to walk out of 4 different kids life
But you didn’t even think that we needed you
That we loved you
You leave with out saying bye
Hear I am the oldest child
Your first daughter
Crying cause you are walking out my life
Then you see me running after you
Yelling mommy don’t leave please don’t leave me
You stop and say Jenn I love you and all your brothers and sisters
Don’t forget that
You drive off and just leave me crying
Do you really love me?
Cause if you did you will not have left me
Now hear I am and I’m needing a mom
We all need a mom
How is Gillian and Chloe going to grow up?
With out a mom to go to
Am I supposed to take that role?
The role of a mother when I am not ready
I walk back in the house and I look at daddy
I see he is crying just sitting on the sofa and crying
I bet you did not even know that this man loved you
Loved you enough that the next thing I know is that
He was getting in the car coming after you
That day you did not come back
But please do know that he is still looking
Looking for you; he has not stopped and it’s been
Over a year
Moms wherever you are he wont stop looking for you
Mom you were wrong to leave I was not ready for this mother job
I was not ready to be on my own with out a mother
You were wrong when you said that dad did not love you
He does love you and that’s why he is out till this day looking for you
Mom we all love and miss you and we all hate that you left but we all
Forgave you so please come back come back for the kids come back for dad
Do it for the family I don’t want the role of a mother when I am still in need
For a mother and Gillian and Chloe including me needs our real mother around
We need you mom cant you see that we all miss and love and forgave you for leaving but now we need you around I hope you see this poem because it’s coming from my hart and all I can say now is
PLEASE COME BACK WE NEED YOU

the hollow flame of christmas
is but a memory
suspended in the wind;
unanimated and sore.

a discordant lullaby
self-seething
and unsettling to the touch.

resonating within
the emptiness
a frost-bitten chill
no amount of soothing
could thaw.

and in all my selfishness,
not once did i wonder
if maybe it wasn't
meant to be felt
like it was - and did
that very first time.

ok, here's my poem. i hope you like it.

broken

your words slice through me
sharp as a knife
my blissful happiness is gone
because of this strife
each day is the same
you break me, then put me back together
i'll go in my room to hide
when i come out, you act like you don't remember
you don't see how hurt i am
even though it's so clear
and no matter how many times i cry
you don't see a single tear
you don't understand how much pain you cause me
you'll never understand my sorrow
you don't know how many times i pray
that it'll be better tomorrow
but it'll never be better
for when i think there's finally peace
it's all torn away
it comes to a cease
i end up broken
just like before
all the suffering i've gone through
i'll go through once more
i wish you'd stop this yelling
it makes me feel like such a failure
you don't realize what you're doing
my life is becoming my nightmare
my memories are haunting me
i'm restless every night
i cannot fall asleep
all i can do is cry
the next day you come up to me
you put me together again
then you say you're sorry
and you think you've been forgiven
but there's something different now
something is not right
for a piece of me is missing
one that's beyond your sight
i feel like all my true happiness is gone
i'm in this deep depression
but nobody will ever know this
for i'm lying and pretending
i'll never show how i really feel
unless you're someone i trust
you'll never see a single tear shed
in public my pain turns to dust
but no matter what i lead you to believe
inside i am crying silently
for i know if things keep going this way
my nightmare will become my reality

In My Dreams
by Sarah Drew

I fall asleep
I start to dream
My thoughts are deep

I see him there
He walks over to me
He runs his fingers through my hair

He looks into my eyes
I look back into his
My heart flies

He smiles at me
And kisses my cheek
I'm filled up with glee

He takes my hand
We begin to walk
We here music from a distant band

It's beginning to become light
Our time together is almost over
I'm filled with fright

He smiles and says goodbye
He walks away from me
I begin to cry

Our time is done
It's all over for me
That's it for all the fun

I'm now awake
Tears are rolling down my face
I begin to shake

It's over now
I'll get over this dream
I just don't know how

The Boy Who Loved
by Tortured Soul

There was once a boy who loved
He was happy and joyful
He had everything he wanted
He was in love with the most beautiful girl

But one day that all changed
She got into a car accident
She died because she got hit by drunk drivers

After that day the boy stopped loving
He had no feeling of happiness
He started to see everything as wicked

He began to hate everyone
Life didn't feel like living anymore
And so, the boy who loved
Took his own life

NIGHTWALKER

I see you
Skin like pale moonlight
And eyes of molten gold
Slender frame that’s draped in black
Your most loving touch is cold

I see you
Hair swept off your face
Dark as midnights rein
You stride across the frosty grass
And swing your silver cane

I see you
With your smirking sneer
And hunger in your eyes
Bloodstained lips of evils lust
Each victim is your prize.

You left me and i dont know why
by Tara Kay

You left me and i dont know why.
You never explained why you left me.
And every night i began to cry,
and i lost everything i could ever see.

You were my friend,
and I miss you every day.
I thought you'd be here till the end,
and be my friend in every way.

There isnt a day that goes by,
when i realise that you made me smile.
And you said you'd be here until i die,
and now you were here for a little while.

What happened to us,
What did we do wrong.
I know i'm making such as fuss,
but i think of you all day long.

I want you hear to look out for me.
Hold me close when i am sad.
The pain i feel is all you see,
and i bet you are very glad.

You hurt me once and dont do it again,
i'm sorry for being your friend,
i have to get rid of all this pain,
and help my heart to mend

DAY LIGHT'S DARKNESS
*********************
DAY LIGHT
FILLED THE EARTH ON A COLD WINTER DAY
A LONLEY MAN WALKING IN THE STREET SEEKING HIS OWN WAY
AN OLD WOMAN LOOKING FROM THE WINDOW AND WATCHING THE SUN RAY
A CHILD CRAWLING IN THE ROAD SEARCHING FOR THE FOOD OF THE DAY
BUT THAT'S NOT ALL WHAT I'M GOING TO SAY
CAUSE OVER THERE , THERE IS A MAN WITH BROKEN DREAMS
HIS LIFE WENT AWAY ALONG WITH HIS TEARS
HIS LOVE WAS LOST IN A STORMY COLD DAY
AND THAT'S WHY HE IS STANDING ALONE TRYING TO FIGURE HIS NEW WAY
HE THOUGHT THAT LIFE WAS JUST A SMILLING FACE
WITHOUT NO PAIN , WITHOUT NO DISGRACE
HE THOUGHT LIFE WILL MAKE ALL HIS DREAMS COME TRUE
BUT NOW IT SEEMS THAT HE HAS NEVER KNEW
THAT LIFE IS NOTHING BUT PAIN AND SADNESS
MAYBE SOMETIMES IT GIVES A LITTLE HAPPINESS
ANYWAY HE REALIZED THAT IT WAS A FORTRESS
HE REMEMBERS,ONCE HE HAD A NORMAL LIFE
IN A HOUSE WITH KIDS AND A LOVLEY WIFE
LIFE THEN WAS ALL PURE AND CHARMING
AND HE WAS A GOOD MAN WHO LOVED HIS DARLING
ALTHOUGHT ONE DAY SHE WAS GONE
WITHOUT LEAVING A NOTE , WITHOUT LEAVING A SIGN
EVEN HIS KIDS SHE TOOK THEM AWAY
SHE DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE BUT ALSO SHE WANTED TO BETRAY
HER HUSBAND WHOM SHE WAS ALL HIS LIFE
AND THAT'S NOT BECAUSE SHE WAS JUST A BRETTY WIFE
THERE WAS A LOVE STORY ALONG SEVERAL YEARS
WITH MOMENTS OF HAPPINESS THAT COULD WASH AWAY ANY TEARS
BUT SHE DIDN'T SEE ALL THAT CARE
SHE WAS SELFISH AND TO LOVE HIM WAS FOR HER SOMETHING RARE
SO SHE LEFT HIM STANDING WONDERING IN HIS DISPARE
HE THOUGHT THAT LIFE FOR HIM HAS ENDED
HE LOST EVERYTHING HE THOUGHT HEAVEN HAD SENT IT
EVEN HE LOST HIS TRUST IN LIFE
NO MORE TIME TO WASTE JUST THINK HOW YOU CAN SURVIVE
NOW THE SUN RISES AND A NEW DAY BEGINS
IT'S LIKE A WHOLE NEW LIFE WITHOUT MAKING MANY SINS
HE COULD ONLY SEE OVER THERE HIS WIFE AND KIDS
THAT HAS BEEN TAKEN FROM HIM BY THE DAY LIGHT'S DARKNESS
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The Elegy of the Lovers
by HansRik

I cannot say in words how much I've loved
For words help not t'express the lover's wish.
Canst thou not see the pain of being unloved?
Or more the languid dolence we anguish?

Now I have lost yon opportunity,
The fire of love has burned this heart of mine
Crying, waning, yonder atrocities
Committed for love, for this thought of thine.

But I shall make myself an oak that stands
Upon thy doors and howls thy name fore'er.
And nevermore this pain will understand,
The love I have for thee, my dear girl.

The hills that sing and dream about thy love
Think not that they shall be eroded, yea,
The willows chant their elegy forgone,
And rot in fetid, rancid ideals.

And walkest thou in vainest thoughts and lies,
Laughing at the trees and hills that, for you, died.
Waiting for mine heart to expire its last sighs.

How beautiful thou seem'st outside,
The sun is but a phantom by thy side.

But nay!

Thy soul is cruel and cold, like the darkest night.

(C)Copyright 2005
(Hans Rik- nom de plume)

Showing Love in Many Ways

Looking back at my past
There’s no way I could’ve made it
Without you in my life, by my side
Making everything right.

There have been others before you
But no one comes as close as you do.
You’ve shown me so much love
Unlike anyone else ever has.

You show you’re love in many different ways
You’ve held me close in your arms
Kissed my lips so tenderly
And just stayed with me when I needed you.

How could I ever repay you
For all you’ve done for me?
The only thing that comes to mind
Is do the same you’ve done for me.

I’ll show my love in many different ways
I’ll hold you close in my arms
Kiss your lips so tenderly
And just stay with you when you need me.

Being with you makes me feel special
Lying in your arms, I’m safe
No one could ever harm me
Just as long as I stay in your arms.

As you lean your head on me
I smooth back your hair, and kiss your forehead
Holding onto you, I never let go
Caressing your face, you fall asleep next to me.

We show our love in many different ways
We hold each other in our arms
Kiss each other’s lips so tenderly
And stay together for all time.

Taste of Blood

The ticking in your eyes calls your bluff,
Feel free to die when you have had enough.
Easy problems are breaking your back,
Your life will be over when you attack.

Make your move
Make a stand
Make your win.
Ha Ha, like you can.

See this war,
See this rule,
See that mirror,
You'll see you're a fool.

To take me out you must act like a man,
You still have to prove that you can.
I see your might it compares to something.
That is only if something equals nothing.

Time to figure,
Time to sin,
Time to let ,
The blood spilling begin.

Live for your suffer,
Live for my revenge,
Know that your life,
Now comes to an end.

Taste your own blood,
Taste your own fate,
Swallow your damn pride,
With your damn hate.

Your last breath,
Your last stand,
Last of all,
Your last command.

Knees in the blood,
with your crying hopes,
Wade in your sorrow,
Bathe in your fear,
Clear your mind,
You don't belong here.

Witness the moment of your failures succession.

I'm sorry i never told you,
what i look for in a friend,
but then again i thought it was safe to assume,
that by now you would have guessed.

even tho its too late,
as you have betrayed my trust,
taken my kindness cruelly,
and shoved it up someone's ass,
even tho after all the things that i did for you these times,
the shoulder on which you cry on,
shall never again be mine,
even thou its too late,
as you have blown your chance,
i shall tell you one last time,
what a friendship entails.

a friendship is something one looks to,
when no other roads are their,
someone you can rely on,
to always be your staircase,
someone who'll lift you up above all the clouds,
and share joy in your glory,
someone who will never let you down,
one who saves your hurt your pride every single day,
someone who doesn't let jealousy get in the way,
and who never lets a boy ruin the any day.

what i want in a friendship is to get back what i give.
i always thought that within you i had found a true friend,
but you broke all the rules,
and have torn my heart apart,
you through all of my kindness straight at my face,
and laughed when i tried to explain that you have lost the race.

i looked to you for help that week,
someone to lean on,
but you where no longer there,
you had left my side.

so now i shall tell you,
for one time alone,
that you have lost a friendship,
you will have no more,
for you i did a lot,
a true friend i was,
but then again you will soon realize,
that me you have lost.

so next time you take one for granted,
take a second to think,
do they have to tell you what a friendship should be.

i am not sorry at all,
that to you i did not tell this,
what i am sorry for,
is that you never knew to begin with,
and now you have lost,
all the chances i gave,
i now have other found some truly great friends.

so good bye and next time you see me,
think of what you have lost,
and i will say one last time,
i am sorry you never knew,
and finally i say Good bye.

Song Of The Stag

Through the broken bough
Streams the long torn sun
Gazing at this scene
The destruction has begun.

For his long lived home,
Has begun to shatter
To house those of evil
His life they will now scatter

However grand his antlers,
However rich his fur,
These creatures know, not of love,
Their lives an honourless blur.

For his herd they care not,
His children slaughtered throats,
Stain the leaves red crimson.
Their liquid spotted coats.

The leaves no longer shine,
The forest knows its doom,
Now lies the broken heart,
The boughs that used to loom.

Through the crushed new leaves of spring,
The stag will meet his fate,
At the hands of the evil one,
His life will have to wait.

Just like those fawns,
He is forced down on his knees,
Spilling crimson blood,
Falling like the trees.

Laura XxX
Don't be afraid

.run away from it.
by chelsea rose

her mother is an addict,
who can’t get by without her blow.
she started using drugs for novocain,
hoping her feelings wouldn’t show,
as the days go on,
and her mom is growing weaker,
she cant help but realize
that the futures getting bleaker.

her father has been dead for years,
gone before his time,
he was way too violent,
and it led to his demise.
His memory still has a hold on them,
In the haunting form of scars,
It’s a blessing in disguise,
That he drunkenly crashed his car.

her sister is a mother,
at the young age of sixteen,
she thought that they would last forever,
but it wasent what it seemed,
as soon as he knew he found out,
he went as far as he could run,
she hoped she’d found a husband,
but instead she found a son.

her brother couldn’t handle living,
It became just way too much,
All he felt was pain and anger
and the pressure made him shatter,
now nothing else could matter,
so he wrote out his last words,
and the sound of a shot was all they heard.

she is a young girl,
whos been exposed to way too much.
she thought she had a family,
But there was no such luck.
shes growing up,
and looking at whats caused her so much pain.
and sooner or later, it’s dawning on her,
shes tried to do the best she can,
but now shes sick of it.
separating herself from the sin is the only thing to do,
She’ll run away from it.

Ending the Pain
by Alyson

A girl sits by her window
Blalde in hand
Staring out across her yard
Trying to decide what to do

Should she end her pain?
With this question rushing through her head
She moved the blade tword her arm
Hoping for peace

Pressing it against her flesh
She watches how the red blood flows
Feeling the tension leave
Welcoming the peace

Now she feels dizzy
The blood hasn't stopped
Its still flowing down her arm
Into the puddle on the floor

She knows what is coming
Theres no going back
So she walks to her bed
And lays down

Her head hits the pillow
And she closes her eyes
While taking deep breaths
She welcomes death

As the darkness surrounds her
She thinks of him
As she pictures his face
The cause of all her pain

She takes one last breath
The darkness consuming her
The pain is ceasing
Then theres nothing

My journey
by Marjan

Now that I let the words out of the cage
Let them flow freely on this page
The sun is setting
And it's getting dark
Soon, up so high in the sky
The stars will spark
Starting my wander around the world
Walking on this earth that is way too cold
On my foot, I cross the land
A little lamp in my hand
A coat to keep me warm
Shoes to keep away the harm
I keep going on and on
Sometimes walk and sometimes run
Until a far away town I can see
Where under a bridge, there's a family
I feel ashamed
At the sight of a little boy
That his shirt is his only joy
Taking off my coat
I wrap it around him
A smile is the only thing I receive
Which is the best gift one can ever give
I keep going
Strong winds, freezing weather
Go back home. That's better.
Warm blankets, hot coffee
This a voice keeps telling me.
Not paying attention,
I keep going
With my lamp, trying to spread light
At this dark icy night
Somewhere, there's a woman
With unspoken words
Locked up inside her
She doesn't have any shoes to wear
Taking off mine, I give them to her
She looks at me with her shining eyes
In them, rest her silent cries
I pat her on the back
& disappear at the night so black
Deep wounds, thorny bushes on the ground
Utmost peace I have finally found
With a smiling face, I enter the next city
I have come to help humanity
A child at the side of a grave
For her father she craves
Sitting beside her for some seconds
After a while, we become friends
Trying to ease her pain
Being a shelter for her in the rain
At the end, I give her a hug
Then disappear in the fog
Tired but happy I return
A big lesson I have learned
Now, I'm completely blind
Leaving my lamp behind
For the little girl I have met, wants to
Have a journey around the world too.

by Marjan Nouhnejad

Stitches
by me, ruby

I sit here stitching up the tatters of my soul
Try to repair this ripped and shredded heart
I cry over these ruined works I had spent a lifetime on
Yet it only took a week for you to rip them apart

My silver needle again pierces through
The needle born of the lies you spun me
I feel a prick on my finger, a drop of blood forms
Even now your lies can still cut me

The thread dives down and emerges again
A thread woven of my wasted love
The thread when new was as white as snow
But now is grey, like an aged turtle dove

This heart and soul that I sit mending
Are washed with my tears as I cry
They embrace the thread and rejoice in the needle
And spread until not an inch is left dry

Washed with my tears and pierced with your lies
And darned with love's wasted thread
My soul feels as thin in my arms as rice paper
My heart is heavy as lead

how can u give say 10 comments and votes when u can only vote once?

girl with no name, it means that 10 different poems of the winner will be commented on and rated

X*x* You Are Free*x*X
by ShadowedPhoenix

Wait.... in time you'll see,
what it means to be free.
Believe in yourself,
because you will come through when there's nothing else.

Listen to the words spoken by your heart,
Self-love will slowly begin to start.
Held your head high, be proud of who you are,
You are great and have no need to be on par!

Open your arms let others in,
for together you can rejoice and sing!
If you believe in yourself, you are free,
You will be beautiful and no one can disagree....

For people can tear you down,
only if you allow them, if you make not a sound.
You give them the power to grab hold of your life,
Then all the pain is your fault, your strife!

Stand up and believe,
It's easier then it seems!

YOU ARE FREE!!

~* Rape *~

It happened three years ago, the first time that you came,
You entered my room at night and left me with the shame.

It seemed so unreal to me, you loved me I thought,
I stood in the shower and realized it was you that I fought.

I know that I said no, but I was too afraid to scream,
You said it was nothing personal, you were just letting off some steam.

I never understood why it was me that you chose,
And why I never told someone, why no one knows.

I don't see why you always come back, every single time,
And I don't see what is wrong with me, why I can't seem to cry.

I know you think I fear you, but here I must prove you wrong,
One day it's my turn to kill you because soon I must grow strong.

Dark Revenge

From the creases of my skin,
Shines my demon trapped within.
It carries sorrow, heartbreak, laughter.
It carries most my mortal sin.

He broke his heart along with mine,
He stole my faith, my hope, my mind,
I needed someone who could wait for me,
And his lack of strength had crossed the line.

In anger I searched for final revenge,
But never had I wished for a life to end.
I picked up that gun, just to scare him a bit,
Then deeper into his chest the bullet descends.

He now lies alone on the floor,
Blood spilling from his core.
My soul wants to follow his,
But I don't deserve heaven anymore.

My hands are cold, my eyes just the same,
As I hold his smile in a picture frame.
I look at what lies infront of me now,
The smile he had is left crippled and lame.

The feeling of death mists in the air,
I have taken a life for reasons unfair.
Holding the gun with one bullet left,
Taking my life is my personal dare.

I repaid my debt with my own flesh and bone,
And still I linger with earth as my home.
My demon will never let me free
Because of the innocent life I stole.

I am sorry I have not been perfect,
During my eighteen years of life.
I am sorry you think I am anorexic,
And that I live life by a knife.
I am sorry I am not the same little girl,
That I was a short time ago.
I am sorry that I feel so much pain inside,
And that you have yet to see me grow.
I am sorry you must look into these cold eyes,
And that I have no confidence left to spare.
I am sorry that I like being away from you,
And that you hate the clothes I wear.
I am sorry for keeping things from you,
And for all my self-destruction.
I am sorry for making you yell at me,
And for causing you have that reaction.
I am sorry for all the times I have sided with Dad,
And for not feeling a bit of guilt.
I am sorry for being the reason you damaged,
The relationship we could have built.
I am sorry for using your best kitchen knife,
To slit my wrist for the first time.
I am sorry for making time spent with me,
Have to feel like a crime.
I am sorry for not giving you hugs when you want them,
And I am sorry for resenting you.
I am sorry for not having the same beliefs,
And for always making you argue.
I am sorry I do not like you,
And that I cannot forget things you have said.
I am sorry that each and every day,
Those words go through my head.
I am sorry for never calling,
And that I do not miss you at all.
I am sorry you had to see me at my worst,
Sorry you had to see me fall.
I am sorry I am not the perfect daughter,
And that I am not who you thought I would be.
I am sorry, mother, for letting you down,
I am so sorry for being me.

12 years old she would die
by Tabby

This is a story of a girl who died but had no choice
But that might have changed if she had raised her voice

Baby girl born in mid July
Who didn’t know 12 years later she would die

At 5 years old her parents were in a fight
Her daddy saw her watching and put his hand around her neck real tight
As she gasped for air
Her mother stared without a care
As she started to get dizzy he let her go and turned around
She set they’re gasping her face was blue
She tried to talk but there was no sound

It took her 2 days until she had finally spoken
But when she did she told herself I’m alone and broken

Oh how this was true she was alone
And how the last years of her life when she was in bed
She would cry and moan

At 10 years old she ran away in pain
Her mother hit her, her father beat her
She would never be the same

At 11 years old for no reason she got cursed
This time her dad hit second and her mom hit first

This happened to her nearly every day
By this time she knew she would never be okay

So on her birthday she killed herself and died
She gave herself her own little present when she committed suicide

Crazy and insane
by Just-take-my-heart-i-want-you-to-have-it

This world is like a movie
never still always moving
when it hurts we feel the pain
the blood falls like drops of rain
fading a way into a dream
out of the darkness we give a scream
rushing comes hope
and with it a rope
all tied up we scream and cry
then we fall and we all die
startled by a scream
we wake up from the dream
with blood on our hands
we wait where it stands
shaking and crying
we see it won't be dying
a cry of pleasure, a cry of pain
we wonder why we're in the rain
we cry for help with no one around
so we settle on the ground
sown to sleep
sleep we creep
woken with furry
off with a hurry
run like crazy
the stranger is lazy
we win the gold
god this is getting old
changing so fast
we shoot with a blast
it just makes it mad
we'd run if we had...
we don't have legs
they are just little pegs
we want out of this dream
it's getting kind of mean
we sit down and cry, cry, cry
but here we lie
in our cozy bed
and we still have our heads

Attack
by Devin

They come in numbers
Spreading everywhere
Killing all they see

Burning and destroying
Everything in their path

In the dark of the night
They begin with a new village
Taking apart everything

Burning down the homes
With the families still inside

As they take it all apart
They grin dark smiles
Across their faces

They feel so powerful
Knowing nothing can defeat them

The demons move to the last house
When they walk in the door
They see a little girl
Curled up in the corner

One walks over to the little girl
They demon looks into her soul
Seeing her darkest secrets

Seeing how she is beaten and abused
And how she prays to die every night
The demon picked the girl up
And sucked the life out of her

All the demons left and burned the house
They left the village

Now they are waiting
For the next time to go and kill
With no mercy

False Hope
By: Amanda Bee

Why do I keep on deluding myself?
And why can’t I release this illusion?
For I know there will be no happy ever after
No heartwarming and fuzzy conclusion

No slow descent into an evening sunset
With fingers intimately intertwined
No romantic candle lit dinners
Served with crystal goblets of wine

I’ll find no roses strewn across my pillow
No softly whispered words of affection
No heart stopping gestures of romance
No days filled of timeless perfection

I’m sure Sleeping Beauty is wide awake now
And she’s probably crying on Cinderella’s shoulder
Weeping that Prince Charming broke her poor heart
As soon as the days of their honeymoon were over

Forget about a grand act of dedication
Or a declaration of tender sweet devotion
Oh how I wish that my head hadn’t been filled
With such an impossible and unattainable notion

Of a love that could endure until the end of time
Everlasting love, hmph…I scoff at thee
You continuously make fools out of the innocent masses
And now I’m begging you to set my heart free

Depart from the crevices of my throbbing brain
These promises of passion have left my mind tainted
Admit to your falsehoods and take away all
These whimsical pictures that you’ve meticulously painted

Disillusioned and utterly heartbroken
Teardrops tumble as I strive to cope
Holding up my chin through this sad reality
Determined to stop desperately clinging to false hope

Behind Closed Doors
by Lil_poetry

As I sit and reminisce about the year when I was just nine I instantly go back to the point in my life when my innocence was no longer mine

An older family member of mine, was my baby-sitter each day
Known as the only little girl in my family at the time, I was only nine years old, I swore to him this story would never be told
There is no way to evade the past so now I put my fears aside and finally I have something to say

The touch of his hand made me want to die
The sound of his voice made my nights full of endless cries
He would say dont worry just be quiet and sit
But deep down I knew he was full of s***
He constantly kept me traumatized as a child
He always had a way of convincing others that I was a strategic liar
Scared to death to tell anyone I just nodded and smiled

I couldnt understand how, why he would force me drop to my knees I would beg and plead for him to let me go constantly crying please
Each time hoping to GOD someone would open that door to the room filled with such painful encounters
But it seemed as if no one else existed in the world just his devious ways, my countless resistances and my persistent prays
He would force me to provide him with orgasmic pleasures
And would punish me when I wouldnt fulfill his sexual measures

I would go home each day feeling like trash from the bite marks on my breasts to the point of me feeling depressed
He made me believe that no one cared about me from comments like Whos going to listen to you, you are just a dumb little girl who lies Deep down I questioned what if I tell someone that he is touching me in inappropriate places from my non-developed breast, to my sensitive vagina, to my inner thighs. They are going to think I am exaggerating. I thought.

I wish I knew that he was just manipulating my mind and soul. But how could I handle this at just nine years old. For years I have felt like I should be punished for this unforgivable sin.

Its eight years later and I question how he sleeps at night, knowing that he molested his baby cousin when she was only nine and he was thirteen.
So what do you do when no one knows of this terrible ordeal that took place 8 years ago? Till this day I am still carrying the burden of what goes on behind closed doors, one day I pray that this door will somehow vanish

This is "The Blindness of the Hearts"

Thy blandishments, so riveting,
hath captur`d me, engulf`d my heart,
and hath me, to the lightest string,
attach`d, with half the world apart.
Within the sight of lasting love,
let taint`d be reality,
and lover`s heart seem fair, thereof,
oh, thus was my serenity.

My heart felt light, and wasn`t pain`d
by dreams of thee, and thereby fell
in love with thee, to be retain`d
forever, in thy ardent spell.
Aye, and seemeth it not fair and free
my lady fair, to be in love
to hold the hand of such as thee,
and feel the love that thou bestow?

And aye, it seemeth fair, indeed,
but is not so, but desolate.
I rather would, my heart was free`d,
of love, that thou doth desecrate,
but `tis not free, and nor am I.
Until the day, it will not be,
when `neath the crystal-bluest sky
I standeth by the grave of thee.

A strange story about a strange girl

Here he sits not daring to look
he's just busy reading his book
I sit down like I always do
face to face and reading too.

But somehow I can't concentrate
because of all the words that fade
they all fade at a very slow pace
graceful, past by his adorable face.

Then each word become a man
chatting, laughing, hatching a plan
They buzz around till I can't see
and suddenly cast a spell on me.

I can't get him out of my head
can't ignore just staring instead
every move is stuck in my mind
and also everything else I'll find.

So I'm sitting, I'm not all there
thinking of the things we'd share
suddenly he looks up and I see
his beautiful eyes staring at me.

I realize how stupid I've been
I panic and then become clean
He must think that I'm insane
so I just jump out of the train.

I lie in the grass feeling tired
But I leave nothing to be desired
just chilling, staring at the sky
satisfied, valuable time passes by.

I wake up on a beautiful day
my body hurts but that's OK
I want to talk but I'm all alone
so I stand up and go back home.

Lonely park in September

A lonely leaf was caught by wind,
In autumn's grey September.
It flowed like silent cherubim,
for as long as I remember.

A single drop of tear I shed,
As leaf was in joyful stride -
The day was dismal, when the words I read
Of my lover's passing by.

Engraved in my soul, thy words are still
Deepening my blue
Now void remains that can't be filled,
I'm lost and so are you.

So I found myself being caught by wind
In early grey September.
And lost my little cherubim,
To things I can't remember.

I.L.S

Finalists:

†♥DryTears♥†

â—Š Atomic â—Š

HansRik

LostSoul

Apathetic Soul

afraid of the dark

Marjan

ShadowedPhoenix

steph

Loveless Ritsuka

Enslavement of Beauty

Amanda Bee

ILS

I will deliberate on these poems, and choose the winners. I'll post today or tomorrow. Thanks to everyone for submitting, and congratulations, finalists! I'll post results soon.

Matt

Oh yeah, CONTEST CLOSED.

Oh um. This is my new account now.

I am LostSoul.

I have proof of purchase..lol

Results coming soon!

Sorry for delay, been busy.

Matt

It happens, I don't mind,
I hope everyone else doesn't either