~* New Contest Up! *~

~* Poems about sadness, depression or loss *~

rules:

[1] No Rasism or Discrimination
[2] No slang (cussing is aloud)
[3] No line limit... Long poems are welcome
[4] No critisim to other poets work
[5] Spell check must have been done
[6] Must be own work
[7] 1 poem per author
[8] no links, post full poem here.

1st place: 10 votes and 8 comments, place in my favorites and a reccomendation in my profile.
2nd place: 8 votes and 6 comments + place in my favorites
3rd place: 6 votes and 4 comments

.:: Contest closes on the 1st of Febuary ::.

23-01-'06: Yeah, I have a problem... I think all of ya'lls poems are brilliant, and I think it not to be fair to just have three winners, but, that's the way the game works.
I have decided though, whoever don't come in the top three, are all number fours, Thus everyone in fourth place, will get 1 comment and 2 rates.

Have FUN,
~* TasH *~

I seen you again today! By: Tim Bradshaw

I seen you again today,
You're someone I don't want to know,
You disgrace the meaning of the human being,
Yet you still will not go.

I hate having to see your face,
Knowing the hatred you have brought.
I can't stand knowing what you've done,
And the ignorance that you've taught.

I want you to leave me alone,
You're every where I turn.
You need to go where you belong,
In hell to rot and burn.

Don't think that I can ever forgive,
The wrong that you have done.
Even though you say your sorry,
And that is was out of fun.

I seen you again today,
You are my biggest fear.
I'm taking this rock and ending your life,
You're dead! I broke the mirror.

A LOST SOUL
*************
THIS IS A REAL STORY FROM OUR REAL LIFE
OF MEN AND WOMEN WHO FOUGHT TO SURVIVE
OF A MAN AND A WOMAN WHO LOVED SO HARD
OF COUNTRIES AND CITIES EXIST IN THIS WORLD
****************************
IT'S LIKE A JOKE WHEN YOU SEE HOW LIFE IS IRONIC
COUNTRIES FALL WHILE OTHERS GROW IN THE SPEED OF A SUPERSONIC
JUST LIKE THAT LOVE WE KNOW FROM THE FIRST SIGHT
WHEN IT HITS THE HEART THERE IS NO WHERE TO RUN , THERE IS NO WHERE TO HIDE
****************************
THEY WERE YOUNG LIKE ANGELS LIVING THEIR LIFE
WITH DREAMS AND HOPES TO BECOME WHAT THEY LIKE
THEIR LIFE THEN WAS SO PURE FILLED WITH HAPPINESS
THEY NEVER FELT TOGETHER THE TASTE OF LONELINESS
****************************
YEARS AND YEARS HAS PASSED THEM BY
AND THEIR LOVE STILL GROW NO MATTER WHAT THEY TRY
TO STOP THEIR FEELINGS WAS REALLY IMPOSSIBLE
EVEN DEATH CAN'T MAKE THEM UNREACHABLE
****************************
THEY GREW UP AND BECAME WOMAN AND MAN
AND THEY STARTED TO BUILD THEIR FUTURE HAND BY HAND
BUT LIFE ISN'T ALWAYS SHINNING AND BRIGHT
IT ALSO HAS A DARK SIDE CALLED NIGHT
****************************
SUDDENLY THEIR COUNTRY WAS UNDER ATTACK
BY A NATION WHOSE HEART WAS COLORED WITH BLACK
THEY BETRAYED ALL THE PEACE PROMISED BY THEM
AND CHANGED THEIR VIEW FROM LIGHT TO SHADOWED DIM
****************************
HE HAD TO LEAVE HER TO JOIN THE ARMY
TO SERVE HIS COUNTRY AND FIGHT FOR VICTORY
SHE WAS AFRAID , SHE WILL NEVER SEE HIS FACE
WHICH ONE DAY WAS FILLED WITH HAPPINESS BUT NOW PAIN AND DISGRACE
****************************
ON THE DAY HE WAS LEAVING HE GAVE HER A BIG HUG
AS SHE WAS KISSING HIM AND WISHING HIM THE BEST OF LUCK
HER HEART WAS TORN APART WITH SO MUCH PAIN
WITH A FLOOD OF TEARS MIXED WITH THE DROPS OF THE COLD RAIN
****************************
SHE LOOKED AROUND AND WONDERED WHY LIFE IS CRUEL ?!!
WHY DESTINY MUST HAPPEN , WHY WE CAN'T OVERRULE??!!
BUT SOMETHING IN HER HEART TOLD HER TO BE STRONG
CAUSE THE LOVE OF HER LIFE WON'T BE AWAY FOR SO LONG.
****************************

What Is Happiness

What is happiness
I don't see it anymore
It's been gone for such a long time
It went straight out the door
Along with you

Now when I turn around
You aren't there
Holding my hand
Telling me that you love me

What is happiness
It's been lost for so long
It's been burried deep underground

My happiness is gone
So very far away
I used to know happiness
That has all changed
Now all I know is sadness
And depression

My happiness has flown away
It's gone to the ends of the earth
Now I never have one good day

I wish I could remember what happiness was

Corridors wind, for miles on end,
My heart grows heavy, as the stairs descend.
A trail of tears, fall behind me as I go,
No one can understand my pain, my whoa.

The world is dark, and it's so cold,
All people do is yell, cheat, and scold.
My heart has broken, a time to many,
I would trade my life for a penny.

You used to be the one, who kept me alive,
But without you my life has taken a nosedive.
How could you do this to me, you've left me alone,
No more hanging out, and talking on the phone.

My life is back to how it was,
My life is full of lies and flaws.
I bet no one would miss me, if I dropped dead now,
Well, then this is my death poem, goodbye and ciao!

~*W.C?*~

Dear God,

I'm not the praying kind,
And I've always questioned faith.
My belief was always border-line,
But now I question fate.

They think that I'm dying,
I've got no one else to turn to.
Now on my knees crying,
Trying to believe in you.

I'm sorry that it took so long,
For me to open my heart.
Please forgive me for my wrong,
Let me have a new start.

It's not death that scares me,
For I know that when I'm gone,
In his heart I will forever be,
And our love will still live on.

The most frightening of all of this,
Why I'm in such despair.
Is leaving his heart with a painful abyss,
And not being there to care.

I need to hold him close,
Gaze deep into his eyes.
I need to let him know,
My love will never die.

We depend upon eachother,
And have since we first talked.
Planning a future together,
Heart to heart we walk.

Please God, you made us soulmates.
I don't want to leave him alone.
I'm praying that it's not too late,
To ask if I could stay home.

You may take me up above,
Or send me down below.
But my soul won't live without our love,
And nor will his, I know.

I'm not the praying kind,
But I hope that you'll forgive.
For I need atleast a little more time,
A little more time to live.

Just until I hold him near,
And to him finally say.
That even though I won't be here,
My love is each and everyday.

"Hope"

Why won`t they accept
The fact that I`m not she
The little girl
I used to be

That shy young girl
With a voice so small
Never said a word
But her smile said it all

The little girl
That stayed so tough
She never cried
When things got rough

The little girl
Who belongs to my past
The little girl
They said grew up so fast

As time went by
And life got bad
She felt she lost
The heart she had

She felt all alone
On her pillow she cried
Because apart of her
She felt had died

Soon her emotions
To much to take in
So she painted her wrists
With suicides sin

She almost gave up
Until one founding day
Her angel appeared
And convinced her to stay

He gave her the hope
She needed to find
He gave her the love
So sweet and so kind

I can`t thank him enough
For loving me the way that he does
For being the hope
That nobody else was.

I am sorry I have not been perfect,
During my eighteen years of life.
I am sorry you think I am anorexic,
And that I live life by a knife.
I am sorry I am not the same little girl,
That I was a short time ago.
I am sorry that I feel so much pain inside,
And that you have yet to see me grow.
I am sorry you must look into these cold eyes,
And that I have no confidence left to spare.
I am sorry that I like being away from you,
And that you hate the clothes I wear.
I am sorry for keeping things from you,
And for all my self-destruction.
I am sorry for making you yell at me,
And for causing you have that reaction.
I am sorry for all the times I have sided with Dad,
And for not feeling a bit of guilt.
I am sorry for being the reason you damaged,
The relationship we could have built.
I am sorry for using your best kitchen knife,
To slit my wrist for the first time.
I am sorry for making time spent with me,
Have to feel like a crime.
I am sorry for not giving you hugs when you want them,
And I am sorry for resenting you.
I am sorry for not having the same beliefs,
And for always making you argue.
I am sorry I do not like you,
And that I cannot forget things you have said.
I am sorry that each and every day,
Those words go through my head.
I am sorry for never calling,
And that I do not miss you at all.
I am sorry you had to see me at my worst,
Sorry you had to see me fall.
I am sorry I am not the perfect daughter,
And that I am not who you thought I would be.
I am sorry, mother, for letting you down,
I am so sorry for being me.

This is a story of a girl who died but had no choice
But that might have changed if she had raised her voice

Baby girl born in mid July
Who didn’t know 12 years later she would die

At 5 years old her parents were in a fight
Her daddy saw her watching and put his hand around her neck real tight
As she gasped for air
Her mother stared without a care
As she started to get dizzy he let her go and turned around
She set they’re gasping her face was blue
She tried to talk but there was no sound

It took her 2 days until she had finally spoken
But when she did she told herself I’m alone and broken

Oh how this was true she was alone
And how the last years of her life when she was in bed
She would cry and moan

At 10 years old she ran away in pain
Her mother hit her, her father beat her
She would never be the same
12 years old she would die

At 11 years old for no reason she got cursed
This time her dad hit second and her mom hit first

This happened to her nearly every day
By this time she knew she would never be okay

So on her birthday she killed herself and died
She gave herself her own little present when she committed suicide

The fight that change our lives

I hear the yelling and screaming
I feel the vibrations of the banging
I hear the screams of bad words coming
From your mouth
I hear you say I am leaving and not coming back
You cant leave just like that you have kids
What are you going to do for the kids?
How do you think we will feel?
Bet you dont even care
Care that I am hear crying
Care that you are about to walk out of 4 different
Kids life
But you didnt even think that we needed you
That we loved you
You leave with out saying bye
Hear I am the oldest child
Your first daughter
Crying cause you are walking out my life
Then you see me running after you
Yelling mommy dont leave please dont leave me
You stop and say Jenn I love you and all your brothers and sisters
Dont forget that
You drive off and just leave me crying
Do you really love me?
Cause if you did you will not have left me
Now hear I am and Im needing a mom
We all need a mom
How is Gillian and Chloe going to grow up?
With out a mom to go to
Am I supposed to take that role?
The role of a mother when I am not ready
I walk back in the house and I look at daddy
I see he is crying just sitting on the sofa and crying
I bet you did not even know that this man loved you
Loved you enough that the next thing I know is that
He was getting in the car coming after you
That day you did not come back
But please do know that he is still looking
Looking for you; he has not stopped and its been
Over a year
Mom where ever you are he wont stop looking for you
Mom you were wrong to leave I was not ready for this mother job
I was not ready to be on my own with out a mother
You were wrong when you said that dad did not love you
He does love you and thats why he is out till this day looking for you
Mom we all love and miss you and we all hate that you left but we all
Forgave you so please come back come back for the kids come back for dad
Do it for the family I dont want the role of a mother when I am still in need
For a mother and Gillian and Chloe including me needs our real mother around
We need you mom cant you see that we all miss and love and forgave you for leaving but now we need you around I hope you see this poem because its coming from my hart and all I can say now is
PLEASE COME BACK WE NEED YOU

Just a little prick
by Just-take-my-heart-i-want-you-to-have-it

I pick up a shard of glass
prick my finger, squeeze it
watch the blood drop like rain

suck up the blood
the taste comes to me
hits me like a freight train

i look up and there you are
watching me, crying with cute little sobs
how could i betray you?

but no, you stay
prick your finger
we share our blood

together for eternity
together we will stay
till death do us part

we shall die together
we shall cry together
we shall fight together

we will show our eternal love
with our blood we join
now we are one, and one we will stay

I'm Now Immortal
by Alyson

White faces surround me
Forever frozen in their eerie light
Darkness is around me
This is the path they walk in the night

Their thirst for blood controls them
They know not what they do
It drives them to do horrible things
And not always follow whats true

As they come upon me
I do not shed a tear
For they can't see through me
I won't show them my fear

They hold me in their tight embrace
Then give my the kiss of death
They whisper secrets in my ear
As I'm getting ready to take my last breath

But what they do next surprises me
They give me the gift of life
I am now immortal
No longer dealing with my strife

The next night I walk with them
Travel this ending land
For now I am one of them
Sitting at their right hand

* Sorry I can't think of a title for this poem. Any suggestions?*

I would like to thank you all for posting in this contest, I have been enjoying the beautiful works and I must say it's going to be hard to pick just three finalists...
I am amazed at the abilities, and proud to be able to comment and rate, I urge you all to keep on writing, for it would be a terrible shame if you don't.

just needed to get that off of my chest... Love,
~* TasH *~

p.s. you might think about the title immortal... could fit, but... you must decide for yourself :)

Love Hurts ~biscuit~

It wasn't you that held the knife,
but it was you that caused the pain.
You made it bleed.
You left the scars.

You bought me roses,
like a dozen sharpened blades.
Dripping.
Red.

The hurt I felt inside,
spilled out in blood.
It was a thrill to see it
leaving me.

broken

your words slice through me
sharp as a knife
my blissful happiness is gone
because of this strife
each day is the same
you break me, then put me back together
i'll go in my room to hide
when i come out, you act like you don't remember
you don't see how hurt i am
even though it's so clear
and no matter how many times i cry
you don't see a single tear
you don't understand how much pain you cause me
you'll never understand my sorrow
you don't know how many times i pray
that it'll be better tomorrow
but it'll never be better
for when i think there's finally peace
it's all torn away
it comes to a cease
i end up broken
just like before
all the suffering i've gone through
i'll go through once more
i wish you'd stop this yelling
it makes me feel like such a failure
you don't realize what you're doing
my life is becoming my nightmare
my memories are haunting me
i'm restless every night
i cannot fall asleep
all i can do is cry
the next day you come up to me
you put me together again
then you say you're sorry
and you think you've been forgiven
but there's something different now
something is not right
for a piece of me is missing
one that's beyond your sight
i feel like all my true happiness is gone
i'm in this deep depression
but nobody will ever know this
for i'm lying and pretending
i'll never show how i really feel
unless you're someone i trust
you'll never see a single tear shed
in public my pain turns to dust
but no matter what i lead you to believe
inside i am crying silently
for i know if things keep going this way
my nightmare will become my reality

-She'll Always Be A Cutter-

I look into the mirror
And all I see
Is a fading impression of the girl I used to be
Every day I wake up
And put on a mask
To hide my pain from the world
No one knows how I feel
Or of all the things that I fear
A silent tear falls down my cheek
I quickly brush it away
Because no one must ever know
How I truly feel
I cover up the scars
No one ever asks
And when they do I simply lie
And then when no one is looking I begin to cry
Every day it's the same routine
I go to school, smile, and pretend
Then I come home and I'm finally alone
I'm finally able to take away the stress
Each cut tells a story
A story of a depressed girl
A girl with no father
And an alcoholic for a mother
And for that she'll always be a cutter

By: Sarah

Because You Cared
by Dean Rands

I've been sad for so long
I've forgotten what happiness is like
And when I smile it just seems wrong
But surely sadness isnt right

Of this moment I forever dreamed
I wished, I hoped, I prayed
Nothing was as it seemed
Until you came, you helped, you stayed

I idolized you in every way
And found in you a special friend
Someone who always knew just what to say
And now I hope this will never end

For it is you that has released my pain
And help me smile a smile that is real
And feel some happiness once again
So now i'm not afraid to accept what I feel

Anyways I'll always owe you one
Or two or maybe three
Because of everything you've done
Because you cared for me

How the Past is Never Forgotten

We always talked as friends,
Flirted as lovers, but
Your girlfriend didn't know
The difference.
Time went by, we grew apart.
You graduated, started working.
My next year in class was lonely,
For I didn't have you by my side.
We didn't play ball anymore,
We didn't see each other at school.
I moved so we didn't live in
The same town, I couldn't run
Into you while you were at work.
Time went by, I'd forgotten
About you. Friends and I
Went to have a good time
Forget about our problems.
But when we ran into you
It brought back so many memories.
We sat in the front row,
Just to sit together.
You kept flirting with me, I
Was thinking of old times.
But just like the past
You never knew how I
Felt about you.

Childhood Gone Wrong

Emptiness
Clouds his soul, shrouds his mind.
He cannot forget, can't help but regret
That he still has a piece of himself to find.

Where is it?
An answer perhaps he shouldn't know.
He's too insecure, not really mature,
enough to let those pathways grow.

Happiness
Takes him under, he's so overjoyed.
And yet his mind wanders, he still looks beyond her.
And he still cannot see why she's so annoyed?

Why is that?
He knows inside himself that's he's failed her.
She'll fight past the pain, she's trying to regain,
The world which - inevitably - is gone forever.

Forgotten
He's had the same chance for seventeen years.
He could have tried harder, could have gone even farther.
But instead drugs have dried his tears.

Lying broken.
He's in too far, there's no chance of escape.
He's twisted his feelings, couldn't find the meaning.
Did he really think it would help if he raped?...

............

The future?
No future remains for these two distant souls.
He wasted his life, she's turned to the knife.
As they continue to dig themselves deeper holes.

I been feelin like this long enough
Got me waiting for just one touch
Boy you and I just can't get enough
You put it down and I like it rough
U take your time and don't rush to get in
U slow it down when I start screaming "Fizz"
U push it harder as u start to sweat
U go deeper kissing all on my neck
I scratch your back as u start to moan
I wish we could do this all night long
I grab da sheets as it starts getting better
U thrusting and pounding and making me wetter
I look at da clock and it's two fourteen
My man about to come home and we haven't even came
Just a little bit longer you beg in my ear
It feels so good I shed a tear
U put me on top and I start to ride
Told my man he had the biggest dick, well baby I lied
You grabbed my ass and held on tight
I swear it felt like I was riding a motor bike
After awhile, u flipped me over and began to kiss
No doubt in hell there was a spot you didn't miss
Looked back at da clock and it said three ten
Looked back at you and my chest touched my chin
U started to eat me, closed my eyes and u licked me
My eyes rolled in my head, I said u my baby fuck Chingy
I don't remember feelin like this, it's been along time
Felt so different to me, felt so good inside
I grabbed the sheets so I wouldn't pull your hair
But you sucking on me, shit that aint fair
When I was just about to cum, I heard the door close shut
Had a orgasim so good, I couldn't get up
U grabbed your clothes and got up and ran
I stayed in the bed and whispered out "damn"
I heard footsteps comming up to my room
Looked over to my left, saw nuthing but moon
The door opened up and my husband came in
I said "surprise, this is what I had planned"
He came over to me and kissed me on my neck
He took his finger and played wit my clit
I moaned already cuz I was about to cum
From where Fizz left off, but he had to run
So I fucked my husband, having Fizz in mind
Thinkin about what he did and ~My Nasty Grind~

tell me not....

Speak not to me of hope and light,
For both these are gone,
Speak not of love and safety,
And all that they can bring,
For I am not un-versed in such things,
I know of the joy they can convey,
But also of the pain,
The emptiness their absence endures,
How fragile their existence is,
Say not that things will get better,
For we both know that is untrue,
These lies like flaming arrows,
Burn holes within my soul,
Tell me not of the future,
And all that it may bring,
All the happiness and the joy,
The light, hope and relief,
My thoughts cannot go there,
Such things I cannot comprehend,
The dark mist is thickening,
You can see it as well as I,
Yet you deny its presence,
Prefer to live a lie,
Speak not to me of light and hope,
These are long since lost,
Once I may have believed you,
That things may improve,
But such a time seems an age away,
Life has shattered many times since then,
And been lost into the dark abyss,
Swallowed by the black sea,
Sunk, lost and never to return,
Speak not to me of live,
For mine is almost though,
Tell me not to be strong,
That if I wait things will improve,
That things will be fine,
With these lies I cannot cope,
Life shattered and a broken soul,
Death looms,
And the end is nie.

the girl in the mirror:

As i see that girl,
i wonder what troubles her so,
her head hangs low,
fear is evident in her eyes,
the pain showing through her smile.

i can see such sorrow and regret,
i can tell that its about a boy,
i can tell even through that smile,
she cared about him,
and he broke her heart.

it isn't all sorrow in her beautiful face,
there is also joy and hope,
and most of all the fight has not yet left her,
she isn't one to forget easily but she can see something,
the end of him.

in her eyes it is evident that she will soon forget him,
and even tho she has cannot care for another so soon,
she knows that soon she shall be able to feel for another,
she knows that the
one will soon be forgotten.

on her face is such sorrow and yet joy,
on her face is the pain of the past,
the pressure of the present,
and the hope she has for her futur,
all mixed in one.

however she is clever,
for no-one will see past her smile,
no one will hear the pain in her voice,
no one will see the sorrow in her eyes,
no one but me.

for you see as i look at this girl,
i come back to reality and realise,
that this girl is no stranger,
and her problems are not new to me,
for you see as i look into the mirror,
i realsie that, that girl is me.

The Boy Who Loved
by Tortured Soul

There was once a boy who loved
He was happy and joyful
He had everything he wanted
He was in love with the most beautiful girl

But one day that all changed
She got into a car accident
She died because she got hit by drunk drivers

After that day the boy stopped loving
He had no feeling of happiness
He started to see everything as wicked

He began to hate everyone
Life didn't feel like living anymore
And so, the boy who loved
Took his own life

Lonely park in September

A lonely leaf was caught by wind,
In autumn's grey September.
It flowed like silent cherubim,
for as long as I remember.

A single drop of tear I shed,
As leaf was in joyful stride -
The day was dismal, when the words I read
Of my lover's passing by.

Engraved in my soul, thy words are still
Deepening my blue
Now void remains that can't be filled,
I'm lost and so are you.

So I found myself being caught by wind
In early grey September.
And lost my little cherubim,
To things I can't remember.

Wauw everybody! 5 more days... I really love and appreaciate the poems that have been comming in... :D GREAT GREAT GREAT!! :D

Breakdown

Dancing with the demons inside my head,
Playing the tunes of bones instead,
Crying is the harmony, blood is the taste,
Marking the skin in Heavens disgrace.

Don’t watch me as I fall apart.
I played the tune that lost my heart,
Darkening the soul to charcoal from fire,
Feeding the poison of Hell’s desire.
I marked the skin [slice and dice]
I did the sin [paid the price]
And now I’m here on the ground;
Falling apart as I breakdown.

Swallowing the pills to drown the sorrow;
Wishing for the future of no tomorrow.
The nights drag longer for forever is here;
Struggle as demons pull me near.

Don’t watch me as I fall apart.
I played the tune that lost my heart,
Darkening the soul to charcoal from fire,
Feeding the poison of Hell’s desire.
I marked the skin [slice and dice]
I did the sin [paid the price]
And now I’m here on the ground;
Falling apart as I breakdown.

To The Stars Above

To the stars above,
shining forever bright,
hanging in the darkened sky,
this poem for you I write.

I feel so utterly alone,
cause you're the only one who sees my tears,
giving me your soothing light,
like you've done for so many years.

Only in your light,
do I feel free to express my soul,
and for the moment I can abandon myself,
and my problems that will swallow me whole.

All the pressure, expectations, and stress,
that eclipse me during the day,
vanish when you grace the velvety sky,
with all the twinkles you display.

You gracefully lighten the load on my shoulders,
at least for another night,
by letting me express any emotion I chose,
from sorrow and anger to shear delight.

So when you start to fade,
into the sun's overpowering glow,
I gently pick myself back up,
and continue on with the show.

But when the stars grace the sky again,
it's the only time I ever feel real,
not the person I show to the world,
but the person I've tried hard to conceal.

©

Behind Closed Doors
by Lil_poetry

As I sit and reminisce about the year when I was just nine I instantly go back to the point in my life when my innocence was no longer mine

An older family member of mine, was my baby-sitter each day
Known as the only little girl in my family at the time, I was only nine years old, I swore to him this story would never be told
There is no way to evade the past so now I put my fears aside and finally I have something to say

The touch of his hand made me want to die
The sound of his voice made my nights full of endless cries
He would say dont worry just be quiet and sit
But deep down I knew he was full of shit
He constantly kept me traumatized as a child
He always had a way of convincing others that I was a strategic liar
Scared to death to tell anyone I just nodded and smiled

I couldnt understand how, why he would force me drop to my knees I would beg and plead for him to let me go constantly crying please
Each time hoping to GOD someone would open that door to the room filled with such painful encounters
But it seemed as if no one else existed in the world just his devious ways, my countless resistances and my persistent prays
He would force me to provide him with orgasmic pleasures
And would punish me when I wouldnt fulfill his sexual measures

I would go home each day feeling like trash from the bite marks on my breasts to the point of me feeling depressed
He made me believe that no one cared about me from comments like Whos going to listen to you, you are just a dumb little girl who lies Deep down I questioned what if I tell someone that he is touching me in inappropriate places from my non-developed breast, to my sensitive vagina, to my inner thighs. They are going to think I am exaggerating. I thought.

I wish I knew that he was just manipulating my mind and soul. But how could I handle this at just nine years old. For years I have felt like I should be punished for this unforgivable sin.

Its eight years later and I question how he sleeps at night, knowing that he molested his baby cousin when she was only nine and he was thirteen.
So what do you do when no one knows of this terrible ordeal that took place 8 years ago? Till this day I am still carrying the burden of what goes on behind closed doors, one day I pray that this door will somehow vanish

Just a couple more days left... Well done everybody! everything I read, unlocks an emotion,... IT's BRILLIANT! :D

~* TasH *~

Disease
by Dean Rands

It tears me apart to say the words
To think the truth for just a second
Because then it's real - not a lie
And I'll have no choice but to forever cry

But still it's something I must face
And I must fight - win or lose
Because it's there - inside of me
Hidden in my skin - hard to see

I'm truly scared of what could be
Of what lurks beneath my skin
It may be hard for you to know
Thats because I cover it with a show

No one knew of my horrid secret
The thing I dreaded most
And then you appeared - came along
And spoke to me with hope's song

The lyrics came so loud and clear
Hold on, be strong, have hope
For that reason I trusted you
And that trust just grew and grew

I dont know where to next or if
This battle I will win
But you're here to keep me strong
And forever remind me or hope's song

I've said before how scared I am
How hope is hard for me to keep
But this I'll face just for you
My friend, my hero - It's true

I hear the clock as it slowly ticks
Shows me how time goes by
So not a minute should we waste
Let's get this over with - post haste

And if the news is really bad
I won't cry or break down
I'll fight it all the way
So next time I can save YOUR day

Sitting here
Screaming inside
Trying to find a way to escape
Waiting for a light to shine through
Something..Someone..to tell her everything will be okay...
What if no one comes?
Will she make it through the day?
She sits in this dark room
With a knife in her hand
Ready to take her life away
Ready to leave this madness
Leave all her sadness behind
The time has come
No one is here
It's time for her to face her fear
She lifts the knife
Slit's her wrist
Knowing that she won't be missed
Blood starts flowing
Her face begins glowing
Death she's face's head on
Hoping that it will help her move on
Lifeless she is on the floor
The door creaks upon
Walks in a little girl
Mommy she's whispers
Are you okay?
Mommy talk to me
Tell me you all right
The girl notices a note on the door
Reads it quickley then falls on the floor
Mommy how could you do this to me?
Leave me all alone...
Who is gonna be there now that you're gone
I'm sorry mommy that you thought I didn't care....
I guess....life just isn't fair....

A Room Full Of Drakness
By: Naydeen

In A Room Full Of Darkness,
Thoughts Running Through My Mind,
I Try To Cut, But Afraid,
Afraid Of The Pain,
But Nothings More Painful Than Being Ignored.

Family, Friends, And Even God,
No Love From Anyone,
Isolated In A Room Of Darkness.

Afraid To Say Whats On My Mind,
Afraid Of What They'd Think,
Afraid If They'd Laugh.

Looking At My Reflection In The Mirror,
Brings Back All The Memories,
The Memories Of Pain,
Pain From Them Laughing And Talking About Me.
And I Just Sit There....
In A Room Full Of Darkness.....Crying.

Puddle of Tears (Double Etheree)
By: Amanda Bee

So
Here I
Lie in my
Puddle of tears
Wishing you were here
To wipe away these fears
With my head upon your lap
With your hand stroking me on my back
With things back to the way they used to be

When you’d comfort me in your arms and say
Not to fret ‘cause things would be okay
How’d you always know that they would?
As you’d kiss me on my head
Each time there to save me
From sinking in sobs
But without you
Mom, surely
I will
Drown

Dean rands has 2 poems posted.

Runaway
by Tara Kay

Sometimes I feel like I wanna runaway,
Pack my things and make a quick getaway.
I need some time to get away from the problems in my life,
To relieve my mind and put aside all of this shit attacking me inside.
Memories no one can take away
The pain that I feel each and everyday
But I am not a weak little girl,
And my feelings make me wanna hurl.
I know that deep down I am really strong,
And I believe I can't ever do wrong.
So many nights so many tears I've cried ,
With no one to be by my side.
But now I am thinking harder than ever,
And I won't give up, not ever.
Sometimes I feel like I wanna Runaway,
But believe me I know for sure that it won't be today.

I have noticed this too...
Seeing as I'm not a complete heartless bitch..:p I won't diqualify you.. However only the first poem you've posted will participate in the contest.

tc,
~* TasH *~

(YA'LL KEEP IT UP!! IT'S BRILLIANT!)

Alone in this World

I walk alone in this deserted place, no-one here, no-one here. My echo is the only thing that talks to me and my shadow is the only other being, the feeling I get in this haunting place takes it's toll on me, cos it's making me go crazy.

I'm still walking with only one goal in mind, it's to find you, hold you and be with you. Deserted city streets that once were full but now left with nothing but the eery wind carrying haunting sounds as it goes by, chilling to the bone the feeling is something none have ever felt.

I can't take much more of this walking in this dark abyss, take my soul, I give unto you, do with it want you want to, just get me outta this decimated place. Lifeless as I continue to walk, a light appears and covers all, I can't see blinded by it's intensity. Seen from the center a faded, blurred outline of an angel. It walks to-wards me, I feel week, my knees go limp, I fall to the ground all goes white...

I wake to the sounds that once filled the world, the chirping of birds and the laughs of children. My eyes open I'm lying in bed, I turn to my-side and see you there, I can't believe it my body fills with so much joy and happiness, it can't be explained. You awake and you smile at me my life is complete everything I ever wanted in you is here I'm so happy it can't be explained....

I'll love you forever until the end, be sure of that my darling one, now rest your head and go back to sleep.......

Inside I Feel
by Levi

Unspoken feelings inside of me, tearing me apart.
Dimmed lights surrounding, slowly going dark.
Things I so longing want filling in my head,
I want you here but your not, it's breaking my already
hurting heart. I love you so much that's why it hurts,
you'll always be in my heart.

Feeling strange inside, it's all in my head. Love is a
painful thing but so is not having anyone to love.
You and me are one in the same, just not here is what's
keeping us apart, Ii just wanna be in your heart.

Sometimes I just wanna know if it even worth it all,
Love just never goes my way, but I know your out there
waiting to be found.

I wanna wake to your lovely smile and be there when you
go to sleep. I wanna show the love inside and know you feel
same, I'll forever love you and I know you feel the same.

The way I feel inside, has to come out soon I wanna be with
and gaze upon the moon, in a dark lit city sky. I love you
and I always will forever until the end of time.

Destiny
by Levi

In a world were evil did stir. Lived a boy wearing

clothes of green. In the forest he slept and dreamed, of times

unseen. Upon awaking a fairy he sees, from his bed sits and

stares. The Guardian of the forest has called upon him and

this is were his journey begins. A quest that no normal man

could could carry, for he is the chosen one. A princess, an

evil man and three sacred stones. A Golden Power hidden

by the Gods all so long ago in a place where none should go.

Things went wrong and the man took the Power for his own.

The boy awakes now a man 7 years later in a new land, for

all is changed and all is wrong. Embarking now to finish the

journey he once began.

He seeks the one's to bring about peace and save this old dying land.

After all is done, he returns to the place were it all went wrong to slay

the man with an evil name. Victory the young man claims with the

sword of evils bane, and so that all has been was all undone. Returned

back to the place from when he once came.

Fable's are forgotten but Legends forever his name is Link and his journey

is done.

All Shall Pay
by Levi

I searched my lands of blood and bone looking

for the thing I wished to own, to rule the world

were evil reigns, where none sleep in fear of

death and pain. I shall rule this land and all shall

pay for I'm am GANON, and will engulf the world in

flame because I suffered all shall pay.