my first contest!

~*~broken~*~
your words slice through me
sharp as a knife
my blissful happiness is gone
because of this strife
each day is the same
you break me, then put me back together
i'll go in my room to hide
when i come out, you act like you don't remember
you don't see how hurt i am
even though it's so clear
and no matter how many times i cry
you don't see a single tear
you don't understand how much pain you cause me
you'll never understand my sorrow
you don't know how many times i pray
that it'll be better tomorrow
but it'll never be better
for when i think there's finally peace
it's all torn away
it comes to a cease
i end up broken
just like before
all the suffering i've gone through
i'll go through once more
i wish you'd stop this yelling
it makes me feel like such a failure
you don't realize what you're doing
my life is becoming my nightmare
my memories are haunting me
i'm restless every night
i cannot fall asleep
all i can do is cry
the next day you come up to me
you put me together again
then you say you're sorry
and you think you've been forgiven
but there's something different now
something is not right
for a piece of me is missing
one that's beyond your sight
i feel like all my true happiness is gone
i'm in this deep depression
but nobody will ever know this
for i'm lying and pretending
i'll never show how i really feel
unless you're someone i trust
you'll never see a single tear shed
in public my pain turns to dust
but no matter what i lead you to believe
inside i am crying silently
for i know if things keep going this way
my nightmare will become my reality

Hold me now, as the light begins to fade,
My eyes are losing, the wonderful shade of jade.
Hold me please, as the tears fall down,
My eyes feel as if they are going to drown.

Hold me close, as I tell you my fears,
Let me wet you shoulder, with my tears.
Hold me tight, never let go,
Because life sucks, there's nothing to show.

Hold me up, no matter how much I want to fall,
And talk to me for hours, when it's you that I call.
Hold me, and say you'll never leave me alone,
I'm slowly dying, yet I can still smell cologne.

Please just hold me, say you love me,
Because I love you, can't you see?
Yes, just hold me, I need you now,
Don't treat me like snow, as if your a plow.

I need you to hold me, don't push me away,
No matter what you do, my love's here to stay.
I'll die if you don't hold me tight,
Because I cut myself tonight.

I hold my wrist, because of you,
I;m almost dead, but it's not yet time to say ado.
Hold me, as my lips turn cold,
Treat me as precious as gold.

Hold me, as my life is leaving,
As I start to have a hard time breathing.
Hold me as I say goodbye,
You say it back, but I've missed your reply.

I've died.

~*Who Cares?*~

-She'll Always Be A Cutter

I look into the mirror
And all I see
Is a fading impression of the girl I used to be
Every day I wake up
And put on a mask
To hide my pain from the world
No one knows how I feel
Or of all the things that I fear
A silent tear falls down my cheek
I quickly brush it away
Because no one must ever know
How I truly feel
I cover up the scars
No one ever asks
And when they do I simply lie
And then when no one is looking I begin to cry
Every day it's the same routine
I go to school, smile, and pretend
Then I come home and I'm finally alone
I'm finally able to take away the stress
Each cut tells a story
A story of a depressed girl
A girl with no father
And an alcoholic for a mother
And for that she'll always be a cutter

"No more tears will run down this face"

For you I will no longer obey,
I will not listen to all you say.

For you lied so much, oh yes indeed,
For you I will no longer bleed.

For you I will no longer cry,
For you I would never die.

For you I will no longer see,
For I will be what I want to be.

I will not do what you say I should,
Because to me you were never good.

I will never again lay down for you,
You have no idea what you put me trough.

I will say things I should have years ago,
I will have the guts to say finally "no".

For you I will no longer bow,
I will leave you right here, right now.

For the pain and sorrow, and every tear,
You I will no longer fear.

I will walk away with pride and grace,
No more tears will run down this face.

Special friend
by Tara Kay

There is one special friend,
that has to be you.
someone who'll be there till the end,
and cheer me up when i'm feeling blue.

you make me smile,
you make me laugh,
and i am happy,
just being with you.

there are days when we are apart,
but everyday you are in my heart.
You are such a good friend,
and you always have a hand to lend.

I don't need to be afraid,
because I know you care,
a special friend I have made,
a friend that is always there.

someone who's heart is full of love,
such beauty and grace,
has been sent from above,
to this fantastic place.

A place we share together,
a friendship that will never end,
a friendship that is forever,
you are my special friend.

You can't do anything wrong,
I am so lucky to have a friend like you,
i know the age gap is long,
but we are friends all the way through.

I want to share all the love inside my heart,
let you see how happy you make me,
and then when we are apart,
together we will still be.

don't you ever make me cry,
because you would make me blue,
I promise I won't ever lie,
i will always be honest with you.

I won't ever make you sad,
or at least i will truly try.
Because I will not be glad,
if i ever have to say goodbye.

you are a friend so dear,
this is 100% true.
I know that we are here,
good friends are me and you.

"Hope"

Why won`t they accept
The fact that I`m not she
The little girl
I used to be

That shy young girl
With a voice so small
Never said a word
But her smile said it all

The little girl
That stayed so tough
She never cried
When things got rough

The little girl
Who belongs to my past
The little girl
They said grew up so fast

As time went by
And life got bad
She felt she lost
The smile she had

She felt all alone
On her pillow she cried
Because apart of her
She knew had died

Soon her emotions
To much to take in
So she painted her wrists
With suicides sin

She almost gave up
Until one founding day
Her angel appeared
And convinced her to stay

He gave her the hope
She needed to find
He gave her the love
So sweet and so kind

I can`t thank him enough
For loving me the way that he does
For being the hope
That nobody else was.

Just let her cry
by Just-take-my-heart-i-want-you-to-have-it

She sits alone
her house silent
she just wants one wish
for that one last kiss
the love her daddy had
but is still there without him
she smiles to think
she may soon see him again
with her a brand new blade
bought from the hardware store
she sits in her room
in the silent house
others know she wants to die
but all they say is "just let her cry"

I seen you again today
by: Tim Bradshaw

I seen you again today,
You're someone I don't want to know,
You disgrace the meaning of the human being,
Yet you still will not go.

I hate having to see your face,
Knowing the hatred you have brought.
I can't stand knowing what you've done,
And the ignorance that you've taught.

I want you to leave me alone,
You're every where I turn.
You need to go where you belong,
In hell to rot and burn.

Don't think that I can ever forgive,
The wrong that you have done.
Even though you say your sorry,
And that is was out of fun.

I seen you again today,
You are my biggest fear.
I'm taking this rock and ending your life,
You're dead! I broke the mirror.

I'm Now Immortal
by Alyson

White faces surround me
Forever frozen in their eerie light
Darkness is around me
This is the path they walk in the night

Their thirst for blood controls them
They know not what they do
It drives them to do horrible things
And not always follow whats true

As they come upon me
I do not shed a tear
For they can't see through me
I won't show them my fear

They hold me in their tight embrace
Then give my the kiss of death
They whisper secrets in my ear
As I'm getting ready to take my last breath

But what they do next surprises me
They give me the gift of life
I am now immortal
No longer dealing with my strife

The next night I walk with them
Travel this ending land
For now I am one of them
Sitting at their right hand

This is not goodbye
by Tabby

Crying by his bedside my tears flow endlessly
I held his hand so tightly never wanting to let go
Trying to not think about what is about to be
I look up at him trying to not let my sadness show

His eyes are closed his breathing is slow and heavy
I run my hands through his thick, dark, brown hair
His handsome face is so pale with the color gray
That I begin to cry even harder thinking it isn't fair

Sickness is taking my true love away from me
Draining away his energy happiness and light
But not stealing our love away from each other
That is the one thing that he was able to fight

His eyes slowly open and he turns toward me
He smiles a weak smile and touches my cheek
I feel myself breakdown and burst into sobs
trying to say don't die but I could no longer speak

he grabs my hand and pulls me to him
reaching for my face he brings me into a kiss
then he hugs me with such a weak embrace
I hug him so tight never wanting to end this

Suddenly he lets go I pull myself slowly up
He looks at me with such sadness in his eyes
"I love you sweetheart"he says to me
"I love you but there will be no goodbyes"

"I love you to" I sob into his shoulder
I lay on his chest hearing his heart as I cry
I feel his breathing slowly fade away
As i sob to myself I say "its ok this is not goodbye".....

Mom

You said you loved me
You said ill always have you
You always said you will be my mom
No matter what well guess what
I'm adopted and you dont seem to be around
When I need you and I need you now
As you read this you will realize that you were wrong
You were wrong to leave me and give me up
Hear I am almost a woman and I have forgiven you
But imI'm believing I was wrong
I went to see you last week
I saw you with your husband and new baby
I had no clue I had a baby sister
You keep me in the dust
Like I dont exist
You did not want me I was a mistake
Next time I see you ill go to the door instead of
Looking threw the window
Now I realized you never loved me
I was just an accuse so you can get out the house
Well no im back
Im haunting you day and night
You no im there in that house
You no it and so does your husband
So will I ever be forgotten?
Not this time around
Not Ever

Dreaming
by White tiger

You tried to
Get my heart,
But I wouldn't let you.

You tried to
Open my eyes to the truth,
But I shut them.

You tried to
Get me from getting in the car,
But I refused and got in.

You prayed
For me,
But I didn't feel it.

You saw
The crash and shed a tear.
I didn't see it, because I'm no longer here.

I saw you,
On judgment day,
Wishing this would all go away.

I saw you
Shake your head,
As I fall down the endless step.

You see me
Wake up,
And I start to cry.

You tried to
Get my heart,
And I gave it without a doubt.

You can't wait until something happens to you, to change what your doing!! You have to change it now, before something does, and you regret it!!

My Chance
by Randy East

I'm so exited,
I just cant wait
exhilarated
I see the gate

Ive waited forever
for this chance
I turn around for
one last glance

I put my hands up
to send good byes
tears of joy
swell up my eyes

With every blink
a new tears trace
I think about
my mothers face

I can not wait
to feel her care
and from that point
a life we'll share

I continued on
and as I walked
The gate swung shut
and suddenly locked

I turned around
in my surprise
and saw the sorrow
in everyones eyes

Not ten feet away
I hit the floor,
agony, despair,
and so much more

The gates
of Heaven had
shut me in,
a victim to

...ABORTION

SONG OF THE STAG

Through the broken bough
Streams the long torn sun
Gazing at this scene
The destruction has begun.

For his long lived home,
Has begun to shatter
To house those of evil
His life they will now scatter

However grand his antlers,
However rich his fur,
These creatures know, not of love,
Their lives an honourless blur.

For his herd they care not,
His children slaughtered throats,
Stain the leaves red crimson.
Their liquid spotted coats.

The leaves no longer shine,
The forest knows its doom,
Now lies the broken heart,
The boughs that used to loom.

Through the crushed new leaves of spring,
The stag will meet his fate,
At the hands of the evil one,
His life will have to wait.

Just like those fawns,
He is forced down on his knees,
Spilling crimson blood,
Falling like the trees.

Dont be AfraidXxX

How the Past is Never Forgotten

We always talked as friends,
Flirted as lovers, but
Your girlfriend didn't know
The difference.
Time went by, we grew apart.
You graduated, started working.
My next year in class was lonely,
For I didn't have you by my side.
We didn't play ball anymore,
We didn't see each other at school.
I moved so we didn't live in
The same town, I couldn't run
Into you while you were at work.
Time went by, I'd forgotten
About you. Friends and I
Went to have a good time
Forget about our problems.
But when we ran into you
It brought back so many memories.
We sat in the front row,
Just to sit together.
You kept flirting with me, I
Was thinking of old times.
But just like the past
You never knew how I
Felt about you.

"Broken Hearts"

You've gone on to someone new.
You've got me feeling down.
Made me want to end my life.
Just to end this frown.

You said you only broke my heart,
But how can that be true?
You said things would get better.
But I'm still in love with you.

You said other people break people's,
Hearts every single day.
And how are you such a horrible person?
By living life this way.

Sadly you didn't break my heart.
You stole it in my sleep.
You still have it to this day.
You're stabbing it softly as I speak

It takes a very special girl,
To make me feel this Weak.
I thought I was stronger then this.
But you've made my heart so meek.

Why is it I pray for death?
How can this even be?
Dear Lord, Please take my life soon,
Living in hell is killing me.

You will never be able to go back,
From all the things you've said.
A cut on my wrist for every lie.
Someday you'll make me dead.

© 2005 David J Gossett

Crimson Storm
By: Jenn aka Pure

Blood drops like summer rain, her wounds cry pain
I'm sorry loses all meaning in her breath, she's dying
She can't smile like it's all right; you're not killing her

Water ripples

Blood stained water surrounds her decaying soul
Her trusted blade is dripping with secrets, her lies
She can't be who you need, She can't love you

Crickets cry

Blood soaked tears caress the floor in forgotten pools
Heart wrenching smiles no longer cross her features
Never found, never loved, never known, I'm forgotten

Life stops

As the water runs through it...
There is no sorrow like existence*

*A saying I learned in religions class, it's a Hindu quote. [There is no fire like lust, no luck as bad as hate, no sorrows like existence, no bliss like nirvana]
I couldn't think of a title sorry everyone.. if it doesn't seem to fit

Where must though wander, through mist, rain and storm
Traverce through the crevace, of valley scorned.
The serpent that hides within shattered hearts
Strike us with venom that tears us apart.
So long I lay, with courage unbroken
But false hope doth fade, when love's unspoken.
Rid me of hatred, let me overcome
To re-appear in thing eye, the love of one.
I pray to the arrow, flee from your home
Cut through winded clouds, pierce two tired souls.
Oh angel who holds such sweet surrender
Hit him again, I will love no other.

lol whew, I just made it in time. It's a brand new poem; and I thought I'd explain it a little bit, because 'the arrow' doesn't have it's obvious meaning quite out there. I used the arrow like that, because, well dying stops someone's physical and emotional pain (lol obviously) but it is also cupids weapon of choice to make people fall in love. And falling in love is capable of causing great pain...

I counted and thats 20 poems

Aw thank you so much.
And congrats to everyone. :)

Hey congratulations to all the winners! I read all the poems myself, and I couldn't imagine being the judge that had to make that decision. Awesome jobs!!!

Congrats to everyone that won and to everyone that entered.

yay 2nd place! congrats every1:)
~*Who Cares?*~