Coping With Imperfection

I believe that sometimes the hardest thing to do is admit that you are wrong or be able to cope with a situation that is not in your favor. In this contest I want you to submit any poem you have written in the past that corresponds with this topic. : )

(1st Place) - 7 Comments and Ratings

(2nd Place) - 5 Comments and Ratings

(3rd Place) - 3 Comments and Ratings

Contest Will End When 15 Poems Are Submitted
GOOD LUCK!!!

this is about me trying to cope with the fact that i cannot be perfect cannot be good enough for some girls i thought were my friends bad situation but am glad its over now
i think it fits you topic but yeah if its not just say so...here goes

Crying from the Eyes and Bleeding From the Heart

Hey I know it's impossible,
but I tried for perfection
cause I wanted acceptance
and you gave rejection.

I didn't hate you - I wanted to love you
and when each day did dawn - grass soaked with dew
once again I'd fake that smile
just so i could be, good enough for you.

Some call it pathetic,
Some say it's lame,
but day after day
i'll continue on in this childish game

I'll beg for you love,
and with the most forced of smiles - ill try all day long.
Till alone in my room, ill turn up the radio and cry until dawn
then one day ill realise I'll realize I got it all wrong.

I needn't have endured the put-downs and the pain
I didn't need to feel so worthless or meek
I didn't need to play your stupid little game
and let you walk all over me.

Cause I can never be all that you wanted of me!
I can't change the way I am - I can't be perfect!
The truth is your no better than me!
and a true friend would love me, JUST AS I AM

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http://www.geocities.com/cherryblossom_star/poem.html
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A poem by a nobody

I've been tortured all my life.
I've been used just like a pawn.
I've had lots of time
To be as gentle as a fawn

I spent this morning crying
I spent the night alone
In the freezing grips of death
Cold in this haunted home

I'm feeling drenched in shambles
My body clad in chains
You need to understand
This isn't your pain

My face is full of beauty
My heart is filled with love
I'm an angel but I'm not from heaven above

I guess that I'm miss perfect I have nice things
Yet notice
Those wretched people tore my wings

I need some medication to soothe my aching heart
These people are tearing me apart
If I really am Miss perfect then I'm a nobody

Because nobody's perfect that surely must be me.
Don't ever call me perfect; I also do have flaws
They're all inside me-the ones you never saw

As I sit here crying please remember me
Not only for the looks but who i truly be
I am undefined, I need some time

Don't hurt me; my bodys burned with scars
Realize I haven't gotten far
Save me, oh please, save me
The pain's almost too much to bear
I'm wringing my hands and covered by my hair

If I ever die, please bury me
Somewhere not for a nobody
Dont show anyone my face, I wasn't worth the crying
My heart should have been measured all the time

My caring isn't worth your tears-
I have doubts and worries, also fears

I love everyone who loved me, even those who held a grudge
Don't forget me, who I am, remember looks don't judge.
If I treated you so meanly and I hurt you so hard, tell me now, not when we're apart

I tried my best to be happy
I tried so hard to earn your trust
If I must cry while having faith...then I guess I must...

(© Kristi Hancock)

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I hope this fits the topic? Does it? The themes kinda... how people would think I was so perfect when really I was in way deeper than them when it came to losing what kept me alive -- i lost control of my life.
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Apology
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You're right, I was wrong
To tell you what I knew
But you knew all along
All this pain, caused by you

I was wrong to feel this way
I was wrong to write these lines
I was wrong, and today
I'll admit that I was blind

I was wrong to make you wake
From your everlasting dream
But your careless dream was fake
At least, that's what it seemed

Now I'm in pain
Because I smashed your lies
I guess I was wrong again
So I apologise

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Peace. [Sole]

Unnoticed
by Alyson

Crimson tears fall from my veins
Specked with my many pains
As they fall my sorrows fade
Then I thank my blade

100 thousand drops have fallen
From my weakening arms
100 thousand tears have fallen
After each self-inflicted harm

Too many tears have fallen
From my dark blue eyes
I've screamed so many times
Yet no one hears my cries

I've been abandoned
Alone on this hell called earth
So many people have passed by
Not seeing my worth

But I will make them see
As the tears fall to the ground
That something good is gone
And will never come back around

As my body fails to move
And my eyes fail to close
They still don't notice the person
That was right in front of there nose

~I don't know if this was exactly what you were looking for but this was the closest thing I had. Let me know if it wasn't what you were looking for and I could probably write one for the contest.~

SHE NEVER EXPECTED...

Can anyone tell me, why is she crying?
why is she talking about dying?
She is struggling with a pain inside,
she is trying a lot but not able to hide.

She did no mistake and no crime she committed,
but her fault is that all she expected.
Her expectations were too high,
crossing the limits and may be above the sky.

Love and happiness is all she wanted to share,
but the guy did not bother and not even cared.
She expected him to understand her a little bit,
but made a mistake and now she is going through it.

Her dreams and hopes are all broken and scattered,
all this is worst and nothing can be better.
Her emotions were used to make fun of,
he played with her and his love was a show-off.

Her feelings no more resides in her heart,
she is crying inside and dying apart.
The result can be so so unexpected,
again she never expected...

***this "she" somewhere resides within me. its all abt my feelings***

the untold lies....

I would never forgive myself..
even i am dropped in hell
never knowing how u feel.....
with a deep blue ill.........

on that short christmas eve.....
when you suddenly leave
a pair of teary eyes.......
as i know the untold lies.....

thus, your gentle smile.....
has turned into incomprehensible file.....
and every single of your touch
has become a deep ingrained cut....

what a fool i am......
full of critics and damn.....
your life is full of uncertainty
but i keep nagging a pity

again and again...
i expect you to understand..
with a sound of offense
without knowing where you stand.....

even so, you always deny.....
to say that important line
with a soft white lie...
or a saying i'm fine........

now, bombard me with your protests..
but please do not give me such a test..
please don't you ever leave me.....
cause you mean the world to me...

i'm sorry

I'm sorry for all the pain i cause,
all the worry and the strife,
I'm sorry I let in the darkness,
I'm sorry I turned to the knife,

I'm sorry I am not brilliant,
I am sorry for being me,
but you are not perfect too,
why can you not see?

all you see is a failure,
a hopeless waste of space,
I am ashamed that I am this,
can no longer look you in the face,

I'm sorry for all I caused,
but no need to worry anymore,
for although you block many exists,
I have discovered a forbidden door,

I am sorry but i must leave now,
this guilt i cannot take,
I try to act like I'm OK,
but it's getting hard to fake,

So now I will take this exit,
forgive me for being weak,
but now with me out of the way,
your future is not as bleak.

Can I still entered:

Beneath Guiding Lights

Blanket of twinkling guiding lights
envelope me from the coldness.
Restore my faith in the damaged shores
that drowned my aching soul.

Revive the failing heart that could
not beat without the touch of hope.
Pour these tears into the clouds above
then let them shatter to the floor.

Kiss the wounds from my body that
had been engraved there by another.
Suffering innocence being violated
Bacteria poison from his words.

Brush the shadows haunting my mind
then sweep the ashes of the twinge.
The tender heartstrings which continue
to throb though nothing pulls them.

Restore the image from my mirror
that might have remained smudged.
Silver vials glimmering in the closet
holding droplets of stained faith.

Discharge these chains of regret from
my world that continue to bind my spirit.
Pour these tears into the clouds above
then let them shatter to the floor.

While I continue to cry
beneath your guiding light

*After effects of abuse and finding love though you don't feel good enough since being hurt.*

# Poem No. 11

Bemoan

Did i hurt you so bad?
did i disappointed you till the end?
i must have been so insane
so crazy to give you pain

did i shattered your dreams?
did i scared you with my screams?
all this time such a fool i have been
i wonder how i could i be so mean?

you loved me for so many years
and all i gave, never ending tears
i wish if i could ever forgive myself
i wonder why i wanted to be someone else?

did i let you down on your knees?
did i felt satisfied hearing you saying please?
i feel so hollow, now that you are gone
i feel so helpless, now that i am so alone

did i burned you in my alibis?
did i just ignored your cries?
look at the price that i now pay
my own reflection doesn't look my way

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the day is not that far dear
when you will write all this with tears
though by then i'll be as far as i could be
and no-one will be there to feel, what you now feel for me

Im sorry

Why did I do this to you?
Why did I find somebody new?
You were only gone for a week
It started out as just a kiss on the cheek

It grew from there to something more
Now I feel like such a whore
I cheated on you with my ex
It never went as far as sex

I called to tell you what I had done
I told you that I just wanted to have some fun
You told me that later we would talk
Right now you just needed to take a walk

You called me the next day
And told me that you just couldnt stay
That if I would do that to you
Then I must not really be true

Now im left home crying
I feel like apart of me is dying
Im sorry for what I did
But hey Im just a kid

I wrote this to tell you that Im still in love
And that I will always be there when push comes to shove
So here Im telling you that Im sorry once more
Please forgive me I want it to be like before!

On the 20th.

SELF-EXPRESSION & DELUSION
by PreciousIllusions

Watching my fan dance in circles
it's rhythmic beat keeps me sane
No one knows who I am
Always in the way
I've only got myself to blame

Would anyone miss me?
W h o tried to stop me?
I was not me

Tonight, I will blow away the miles
Become someone else
Something different
Something I hadn't tried yet
Certainties
the kind of memory I'd been taking for granted

I didn't know
The cursed man wanted my soul
Someone must have taken his
I have faith in no one now
I don't even trust myself
Strange the things you can learn about yourself
when you become somebody else

This isn't what I wanted
I wanted to try something new
I wanted to see what you were turning me into
I wanted to be something different
Something I hadn't tried yet
I wanted to do something I could talk about
Something I would never forget
I got what I asked for
But not what I wanted
Did I know what I wanted?
Something different
but every day to you is the same
& you're happy here
but I can't simply trade one cage for another

Just the feelings & the memories & the bitterness remains
I don't want to grow so cold
God, I'm lost
I just want to go home
I miss my mom
& my dad suddenly doesn't seem so bad
& my brother is growing up so fast
Following in my footsteps again
I can't let that happen

I can't believe it
After the way that I acted
I'm so happy & scared
I have friends
I wanted to be something different
I already am
Just like everyone else
& I've only got myself to blame

Paper Butterfly

Tear a paper butterfly,
Like the fragile memory that stained,
Its wings.
Just as the lost memory of winter as the spring begins,
(You must understand its heart,
As if it was human.)

Understand the code (x's and o's),
That made it disappear as you chose.

Paint it blood-red,
As if a child,
With lips masked as poison.
For the canvas of life is marked,
With insanity's art.

And you can plead the doctor, "grow me a stronger heart of bone not flesh",
(But winter can not last forever and neither can spring stay eternally fresh,
For the mark each makes is unmistakeable.)
But you cried that a heart should not be breakable.
The doctor simply replied "weakness only makes you stronger,
And this starts now, you can't wait any longer."
He continued to assure, it would be ok.

Like the ice is scared of the sun,
But prays for its return.
For even the ice is cold and lonely,
its sculptured character was only,
fake after all...

So fold the butterfly that holds springs return,
The paper is fragile like love.
But on its wings stain the words in the memory of winter,
"I miss you"

>>you have to read it carefully because its cryptic, it shows that people break eachothers heart but without that pain, you never learn what true love and happiness is because without the downside the upside doesnt exist. The metaphor of winter and spring are there to show that without one, the other does not exist.

> this is about how i was always jealous of my friend for being better than me at everything but then when we left school and didnt see each other as often i realised how stupid i had been and how much i needed her. enjoy.

'...but now i am found'

Engulfed by her welcoming wing,
on her two feet I stand.
Her beauty overshadows me and I
recall the overwhelming jealousy.

My emerald eyes are spiked,
with tears of losing her.
I cower in her wake as she protects
me from my clumsy failed attempts to strive.

Clinging on, I push her away,
and find comfort in her shadow.
I'm taunted by her excellence, although
I'ts always me to paint the picture green.

And then I see the sunlight;
I venture from her loving warmth,
and crawl away from everything I know
to seek my own mistakes in solitude.

Triumphantly I greet the welcome breeze,
uncovering myself, I set her free
and the glory astounds me.

But gone is the laughter together we shared,
the fun that we had and
the secrets we beared.

I miss the amenities friendship provides,
courageous and honest, I conquer the lies.
Pardon my arrogance, Lord
Forgive my deceit,
Your prodigal son has returned. Amen.

...:::Im Sorry:::...

Im sorry for what I did to you
Im so mean, and thats a fact thing
You said I was good at acting
But of what Id done; I had no clue

You didnt tell me what you held inside
Kept it buried for quite some time
Let it out, only with you to decide
Whether for good or bad, the fault was mine.

I felt so wrecked, and so faithless
Left me wordless, had no explanation
With your trust, I had been so careless
And within me I held all frustration

You said your love for me did stay
You said you knew to forgive and forget
But girl, just throw the innocence away
What you hold deep inside is what I fret

I didnt do right, I was unjust;
So my final word, wont be in a hurry
I know I hurt you, I lost your trust
But with all my heart, Im sorry.

Err 20th was yesterday, just to remind you in case you've forgotten. Good Luck To All Entries *TU*

Peace. [Sole]

I'm sorry, I've been really sick lately, the results should be out by the end of tonight or tomorrow. I'm really sorry for the wait, I will have the winners posted ASAP. Thanks for being so patient!!!

~Sean Dohr~

Heh, no problem - I hope you feel better soon xXx

Peace. [Sole]

Sorry guys for the wait!!! It won't happen again. Well, the results are in and the winners are...

(1st Place) Bob Shank

(2nd Place) Sole

(3rd Place) Alyson and Master Of Shadow

The comments will be out soon. Thank you to all contestants, all the poems were great!!!

~Sean Dohr~

Honorable Mentions- Invisible 2 U and Brianna
(2 Comments Each)

Brianna- You are coming along very well. Keep up the amazzzing work!

Thanks very much - Congratulations to all the entires, particularly winners and honourable mentions. Hope you're feeling a lot better xXx.

Peace. [Sole]

Still working on getting out those comments!!! Still a little sick, they will be coming out soon. : )

~Sean Dohr~

Thanks! I didn't think that I would place. Congrats to everyone else.