Opening up...

I've got a question, and I'll try to keep my blabbing to a minimum...

Throughout my life, I've never opened up to people and told my feelings...at all. Especially at the most important moments.
Now I've found that, no matter how hard I try it's like I can't. As soon as I start talking to someone, the words stop coming and I actually freeze up a little. I'm physically not able to do it...

Has anyone else experienced this? I mean, I know you can choose not to. I used to choose not to alot, but now it seems when I choose to try, I'm not quite able to...

Do you mean like feeling for someone(you fancy) or feeling like depression or hurt.

If the former I can totally relate. I can talk to strangers with all the confidence in the world. If its someone special I just clam right up.

If your talking about depression and the like its quite normal to hide everything. As the stigma attached is quite horrible.

if u r not able to do it--but want to say it out--dan write it in a note book--and show it to the person[s]

--ther's dis SECRET--i want to take it out--but i can't--i jsut cna't face dat secret--and i dun want anyone to know dat--well i want-but again don't want--it's like dat-mine's one--

is it related?--or who m i kidding ma self?

Well to answer both of your questions...It's any feelings at all.

I won't tell people about my past because I'm afraid of judgement. I hate sympathy. I don't want anyone looking at me another way. So this one I choose not to tell...
But when it comes to my Feelings about my past, or feelings in the present, or feelings about my heart or thoughts...Or Anything!
Nothing comes out...

I know how you feel. I hate talking about my feelings. This may sound wierd to some people but I'm a very secretive person, and I don't like to reveal a lot about myself. I guess I don't like people knowing about me, because later on when I change or something they'll still be thinking about me the same way as they were a while back, when in reality I have changed and am not the same person. Confusing? haha I dunno, I can't really explain it.
But it's strange, because I don't even tell my best friends things. I have one or two friends whom I can tell certain things to, and the rest I'd just rather keep it to myself. It's partly because I like to have secrets, and I don't like it when one friend goes out and tells the other. I guess it's a trust issue, too.

lol If this is a phase, it's a heck of a long one.
When I was younger I didn't talk. Not only not opening up, but I honestly didn't say a word...I think that was for different reason...
I don't know. But I really hope that this 'phase' can be dealt with sooner or later.

i've never really actually opened up to anyone i kind of want to because i know i need help but i just can't ask someone for it even though i need it really badly...