Poet's profile

Name :	Crystal Gaze
Gender :	Female
Age :	16
Country :	Canada
Registered :	2007-03-27
Poems :	75
Rating :	4.8 / 613
Forum posts :	1416
Awards :	( F P C D )
Profile :	I'm just a girl who many don`t see right. They see me as this happy go lucky person, who love`s life, But that is just an illusion I have erected around myself, to fool those not looking close enough. Those who are close to me, know what really bothers me. They`re the reasons I haven`t given up and fallen into the deadly grasp of notions that are the sweetest temptation to my battered soul. These are the people anyone would be lucky to have. They are the ones I hold close to my broken and bleeding heart. They keep me staring into the sun when all I want to do is hide in the shadows of my depression... Their the one`s that have me looking forward to a better future, when I have learned long ago that having expectations is the road to disappointment... \|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\| I have fallen into a whole, and it`s begun to rain. The dirt has become mud and I can`t escape. With each attempt I just fall harder and harder, getting weaker with every try. My body hurts, and my heart is cold, and there`s still no end to the tear`s falling from the clouds... \|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\| So much Pain, So much Hurt. Undecipherable emotions, that can`t be controlled... Once upon a time writing was my release. A relief to the emotion`s attacking my mind, and the agony attacking my body. But now my pen has dried up, and my paper has burned. I'm at the mercy of those around me, and there emotions decide whether I live or die. \|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\| My name is Paula, but many know me as Elaine on here. I'm stuck in the past, incapable of igniting new flames... And with each day, I die a little more...
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Featured poems

Worthless. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 2

A Beast Thrives In My Place. (0)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

dark poems
rating: 0.0
votes: 0

Torn between Pain & Love (0)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 0.0
votes: 0

Escape In Death. (1)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

My Only Fate. (1)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-12-05

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

A Weak Heart. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-11-22

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

These Tears Won`t Forget Your Name. (1)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-11-22

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

Is she the figure your burn for? (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-11-20

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 2

Beauty into Dust (5)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-07-19

dark poems
rating: 4.8
votes: 5

Cynical View; A sad truth about our life. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-06-22

poems about life
rating: 4.7
votes: 3

Dieing For You To Love Her. (5)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-05-11

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 6

Alcoholic Release. (3)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-05-11

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 3

Tainted Sunday. (3)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-05-11

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 4

The Seven Month Lie. (4)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-04-19

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 4

An Apology To A Harsh Release. (3)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-04-19

sad poems
rating: 4.8
votes: 5

A Five Month Lie. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-04-19

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 4

Fallen Angel. (7)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-03-21

sad poems
rating: 4.7
votes: 11

Twisted Lullabye. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-02-27

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 2

Laughter Spent. (6)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-02-27

sad poems
rating: 4.6
votes: 5

Hold This Poem To Your Heart. (13)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-02-14

love poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 15

My 75 Minute Hell. (9)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-02-05

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 10

Cry To The Moon. [Short Story] (6)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-02-03

dark poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 7

My Lost Flower. (11)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-12-13

sad poems
rating: 4.7
votes: 11

The Hell Within My Heaven. (8)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-12-13

love poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 11

A Cloud OF Tortured Dreams. (11)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-12-13

sad poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 11

A Hurricane Of Tears. (8)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-11-15

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 11

Bitter Like The Rain (12)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-11-15

sad poems
rating: 4.8
votes: 9

A Frozen Paradise (7)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-11-09

love poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 7

A Wilting Rose (13)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-10-25

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 13

An Emotional Storm. (My English Anology) (8)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-10-25

poems about life
rating: 5.0
votes: 10

Lyrical Poison (8)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-10-15

dark poems
rating: 4.0
votes: 8

A Poem To Her Beloved. (15)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-09-28

love poems
rating: 4.7
votes: 19

A Not So Pretty Ending. (15)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-09-18

sad poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 15

Her Porcelain dreams. (25)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-09-03

love poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 24

A Betraying Friend. [Collab] (18)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-09-02

sad poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 19

The Dawn Of Love. (17)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-29

love poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 15

Venting. Take:2 (3)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-28

sad poems
rating: 4.5
votes: 2

Venting. (4)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-27

explicit poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 3

The Broken Old Man. (0)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-26

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

Irresistable. [Acrosstic] (6)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-23

love poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 2

Tear's Of Blood (Senryu) (6)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-23

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 5

The Tear's Behind The Memory (20)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-23

explicit poems
rating: 4.9
votes: 18

My Final Good-Bye (Collab) (19)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-08-07

sad poems
rating: 4.8
votes: 17

Random Outburst. (7)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-07-17

misc. poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 4

Rainy Day's (Acrosstic) (5)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-07-17

friendship poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 4

Forest Bliss. (25)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2007-07-13

explicit poems
rating: 4.8
votes: 32

Latest poems

Worthless. (2)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 2

A Beast Thrives In My Place. (0)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

dark poems
rating: 0.0
votes: 0

Torn between Pain & Love (0)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 0.0
votes: 0

Escape In Death. (1)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2009-04-12

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

My Only Fate. (1)
by Crystal Gaze
at 2008-12-05

sad poems
rating: 5.0
votes: 1

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Latest quotes

Confession: And with each second im just falling faster and faster to the depression I can't escape

at 2009-04-11

rating: 4.9
votes: 7

I want to scream, and for once it's not because im lost. He found me, and unknowingly is healing my scars...

at 2008-12-06

rating: 5.0
votes: 2

You said you still wanted to be here for me, that you just wanted me a different way, yet now I find myself with a aching heart in my palm, and you no where to be found...

at 2008-10-21

rating: 5.0
votes: 1

No matter how many times they let you know they don't care in that way, you can't let go because of this exciting and intriguing feeling you have around them, and you don't want to give up and move on because of what you might loose in doing so...

at 2008-10-21

rating: 5.0
votes: 3