Bloodsmears On My Broken Heart

I think about you too much for comfort
I close my eyes and it causes so much hurt
I can't remember what exactly happened
Why you resented me so much
And now I'm lost, afraid, and broken, the wounds I cannot touch
I see back then when things were fine
But now I'm gone, no longer wishing to be alive

I feel the burning of the fire
As I burn away the pain
The heartbreak and the bloodsmears
That drive me completely insane
It's no longer you who can stop it
In fact you'd probably make things worse
But I'm a victim of loneliness, pain, and too much hurt
I'm not sure you meant for this to come along
And I'm sure you're much happier
Now that I am gone
I watch the blood stain my clothes, wash over me
I see the pain inside, and all my misery

I wish I could bring you back, or possibly just rid you from my mind
But I can't seem to do it
My dreams harrass me like no other
It's shameful because this has never happened before
I don't know what to do, so all I do is bleed
Leave bloodsmears on my heart
Because I miss you, and I no longer have this need
This need for living and walking along day by day
All I wish for, is for my life to go away

So I feel like you lit the knife on fire
Drove it into my already broken heart
Made me bleed from the inside out
And tore me completely apart
So the bloodsmears are mainly caused by you
And in all honesty
Was half the things you did
Worth it for you to do