I Always Knew

by Inside the Liar   Mar 21, 2009

In the back of my mind,
I still see him

In his 'holy' jeans:
An unbuttoned shirt whipping carelessly
Over his perfectly sculpted chest,
Flip-flops thrown on his feet,
A sketch pad and charcoal pencils in one hand
While his other hand tugged on mine.
Bidding me follow him
Wherever he chose to go.

I always went willingly.

In the corners of my heart,
I still feel him.

Sliding his arms around my waist,
Pressing his body into mine.
Whispering secrets into my ear
That only him and I needed to know.
Covering me with his warmth:
His words of silk and hands of satin,
Until the world could have fallen down around me
And I wouldn't have noticed; as caught up in him as I was.

I always got dizzy around him.

In the crevices of my soul,
I still know him.

His smile crinkling up at the sight of me,
His eyes boring ruthlessly into mine,
Until, eventually, I always looked away.
The way his heart would beat:
Loud and strong, faster and faster under my head.
I remember laying with him in complete silence:
Our mouths didn't need to talk; our bodies were competent enough.
And being with him was tops on my priority list.

I always knew he was something special.

In the reflection of my tears,
I still sense his love.

In the way I reread his letters,
His words of understanding and unconditional love.
The way he could take my worst day and
Twist it around in his typical carefree style.
Until the day he left, and there was no one there
To send me a letter that lifted my mood. And I was left
Stuck in a state of numbness that I didn't understand.
Just like I didn't understand his lack of explanation.

I always knew it wouldn't be easy to let him go.

Copyright 2009 S. Sieglaff


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  • 10 years ago

    by PoetryKnight

    Funny enough. I love holy jeans and I draw, or sketch, whatever word you choose. I loved this poem, for so many fall in love like this po em says. To the point where we don't need to speak to tell our love. And we think it will never end, but normally that is how it is, ends befor it gets better, for it can't get better. 5/5 on the poem.
    PS: thnx for the comment on Mirror, Mirror.

  • 10 years ago

    by Faithless

    This is a truly heart felt poem. I like how you crafted it in sucha way that you introduce to the readers this care free character which is the total opposite of your character and how he made you feel on top of the world with his charisma and style. You have made the transitions smoothly from the both of you being a couple to him slowly letting u go. Sometimes it's just hard for us to let go this things that isn't made clear to us. You have done a magnificent job . keep it up


  • 10 years ago

    by Italian Stallion

    Very descriptive and extreamly original in many ways. The only thing I really would've liked to see you use is punctuation. Punctuation is very important in poetry, it lets the reader know when to pause or stop as well as adding to the overall flow.

    Overall a wonderful write, keep up the good work.

    Peace, Joe

  • 10 years ago

    by just ashley

    Lettong go of the person you love is hard

    i like this poem its all happy till you get to the end. it makes you think tht u dnt know what u have till its gone. dont let love bring you down. stand up and face it.

    5/5 very well written