In My Mind

I grab tight of the heart locket-
Dangling around from my neck,
And I can feel the vibrations of-
My heart thumping like crazy.

As the sun goes down, I feel-
More than what I allow myself;
To feel during the bright daylight,
Because I'm hurting so badly.

They say that, "A poem begins-
With a lump in your throat."
This poem begins with a lump-
In my heart; my soul- so blackly.

I fill the paper with the mere-
Breathings of my aching heart,
And it doesn't even make sense,
How you can hurt someone daily.

If I can find a way through-
All of the pain to love again,
I won't ever fall for you again,
Because you left me so empty.

I was the doormat for a little bit,
I respect myself more than that,
At the same time, you're inside-
Of my heart, isn't that creepy?

It's hard to not love you anymore,
I've been with you for 5 years,
I think of your smile everyday,
In my mind, I'm still your lady.

In a world of black and white,
You're the only one in color,
I turn the world upside down,
Because I just want to be happy.