I don't want to be me

I don't want to be me, I don't like who I am
Always up to no good, always in a jam
I'm worthless they say, and I'm pointless too
No matter how hard I try, I'll never be as good as you
I think about the person I would like to be
This person I wish I was doesn't even remotely resemble me
I want to be more like him, but I keep falling farther away
In this torment and failure is where I lay
The life I live is one alone, no one to love me, no one to hold
This life I live is bitter and cold
I get up in the morning saying today I will change
But I never do, I remain just as strange
I'm still just as dumb, and I still look the same
I'm still like I was before and only I'm to blame
I'm to lazy to do what needs to be done
I'm even to lazy to have any fun
I don't deserve anything at all
But my dreams are still big, and my hopes are still tall
Maybe I'll change one day, and these dreams will come true
But to tell you the truth, all I really want is you.