Cut My Life Away

So heres one thing i hate
it erks me to the core
how i think about you day and night
everyday i hate me more

i wake up in the morning
and you are right inside my head
i didn't have enough of you
i have so much unsaid

then on my way to school
i tell myself to give up
that we wont get back together
and my heart has had enough

but i when i see you walk by
and look into those eyes
i need you, want you, miss you
i hate how hard i try...

I'm sorry that i hurt you
but remember you hurt me too?
i just hurt your feelings
and you tore my heart in two?!

everyday gets even harder
'til today; i cannot breathe
so much weight is on my shoulders
why did you have to leave?

so tonight i plan to die
because of a broken heart
and massive depression that overflows
since left me from the start...

so as i sit upon my bed
with my razor in my hand
pushing and pulling and cutting away
my suicides began

i see blood upon my white sheets
and some upon my Diary
with many written entries
i wish you would have seen

!*my last entry was only blood
stuck to it was my razor blade
i couldn't handle this broken heart
so i cut my life away*!