Wrath of the Gods

I am at a loss for not only words but for life.
Agony is engulfing me. Each breath I take,
I pray it the last. Never is it though! My head
filled with impulsive and reckless thoughts.
Tonight I can no longer hold back the tears.
I pray that this pain might end. But alas,
no, my pain endures forever. I shall never witness
the face of joy again. I shall be haunted by my
fears and feelings. Pills are near, yes I could
end it like that. Or better yet....there is a
rope here....shall this be my end? No I cannot
end it like this. Nor can I stay living. I shall
never truly understand my pain. None will ever
understand. Making myself a human sacrifices to the gods,
I pray that none should endure this pain. Alas I have
ceased to exist.
No more Pain!