Our War, Our Truce

I talked to you for the first time since we fought today,
I didnt know where to begin; I had so much to say,
Just when I had the chance to let you see my perspective,
I lost my thoughts, so overwhelmed I forgot my objective.

Suddenly the words slipped through my clenched lips,
*We really need to talk this through* I said with hands on hips,
You agreed, at last showing a tiny glimpse of concern,
I shivered as you smile and I see a light inside you burn.

You stood before my cautious parents; nervous and tense,
Knowing they were on my side, there for my defence,
But up in my room, it was just the two of us,
And bit by bit, all our views we began to discuss.

Your glares began to soften; your words lost their harshness,
Slowly we both began to let it flow; together we began to confess,
Through the unfamiliar disguise I could finally see,
The friendly girl I used to know, though it took not a month, but three.

You admitted some things that made me hold my breath,
Crazy things that could have easily ended in death,
I never thought you would have gone that far,
Doing things that will only leave an unforgiving scar.

Knowing who youve been with and what youve done,
Knowing youve taken so many drugs and had so much dangerous *fun*,
I hate the people for doing it to you, the ones you turned to after me,
I cant turn back time and protect you, no matter how much I plea.

You left my house and thoughts invaded my head,
I was stunned and confused, recalling all the things you had said,
Through my empty home rang the echo of my phone,
I knew it was you, the way I froze as hard as stone.

*I dont want you to think Ive gone off the rails, Im in control*
Deep down she cared what I thought; she bared her guilty soul,
Now its up to me, Ive got to make a choice,
Do I want you the way you are, can I even stand your voice?

Yes and no, no and yes, I cannot decide,
People say I shouldnt, others believe to do what I feel inside,
Will this war stop, or will there be more abuse?
Are we ready for our ex-best friend and can we keep this truce?