Revalation

As I lay tossing in my bed
lost in my fears
Remembering what you said
I try to hide the truth within
The mask of myself
Rears its head again
I feel like I'm falling
Father everyday
But I know your there
Watching over me
I feel like I'm drowning
The waves crashing over me
I know your love it will set me free
I hear your voice calling
The time has come for me
Inside the life I'm living
Theres nothing left for me
My mind is slowly fading
The pain inside your love denied
I know your heart was broken
I need to be broken
To take the pain away
You question why I choose to die
The tears begin to fall
Daily as my sin
I take away my life
All the hate deep inside
Slowly covering my eyes
All the fear holding me
My heart is cold
But I can change
In my eyes there's pain
pushing you away
I'm haunted by a past
A past that brings me down
Each sigh I slowly fall away
You're there when I need you
You sew me up
When I bleed
I hide the darkness
Blind to my Senses
Chasing a dream
With false pretense
Open eyes and I can't sleep
I feel so alone
Every-morning I wake
To find another day
I bow my head
Hit my knees
I begin to pray
Everyday living in this life
Not knowing what it means
I look in my reflection
Only pain looks back at me
I'm blinded by your love
Then I'm alone again
I hide the pain within
The smile wears thin
Destructive lies begin
No love is worth
The pain I feel
I run out of pain
Feelings blend
To feel the same
I lay awake and try to say
Anything I know to ease the pain
I hide Where no one can see
Only you can set me free
I'll never make it in this world alone
I find myself in question
You doubt the love I give
I need to fall away
I'm lost within my thoughts
I need you more everyday
I'm sick and tired of being alone
I'm sick and tired baby
I will not be ashamed
I will not be afraid
To face the coming day
I wont hide myself again
I'll reach deep inside
And prove my heart is true!