Hello My Name Is Distance.

I've lived half my life inside daydreams and lies,
with edible questions and awkward lines.
beneath a blanket of tears i never knew were falling,
and a myriad of lullabies i didn't know were forming.
i found easy answers, but they were just make believe.
now the heavens feel quite shallow and the stars consider fate,
channeling the childish dreams that people wish away.
and once more just before i go and mess it all up again,
it's been another one of those days under this sky i'm afraid.
just let me sit and make history with the best view of your back,
while you wait for the sound of my blood hoping i'll go back to that.
when you look into my eyes to find impossible words,
there's fairytale characters growing jealous of this world.
i marvel at your voice and the soundtrack in my head,
rehearsing tired afterthoughts i'd always wished i'd said.
and i stare at your body as it turns so protractive and slow,
i realise you're the hardest heart beating that i'll ever know.
my tip toes reach new heights, but i'll never get to understand,
why your glass heart crystalised in the warmth of my hands.
i only make my mistakes when the spotlight drops on me,
i wish i held your concentration long enough for you to see,
that i'm not afraid of falling now it leads me somewhere new,
my first name is distance and i'll be using it against you.
you don't have the photographs and i don't have explanations,
i'm just the girl that ran away from lyrical impatience.
i'll mark my territory with all these matchstick memories,
and pretend the art of losing is as impressive as it seems.
there's no doubt about it there's just a lack of faith,
drowned in adult logic and the innocence i never saved.
i'm the one that's forgettable not the one you wish you could,
grab a hold of firmly with and float away for good.
the lights beneath are overworked and i've lost all sense of days,
but i did everything in power to push you far away.
and when the stars align and everything is polished clean,
i'll await the time you brutalise everything that i believe.

Mercury Rising - From Autumn To Ashes