I hate the way

I hate guys who lie to me
I hate getting my heart broken
By the same guy 3 times
I hate the words I love you
Because they mean absolutely nothing
I hate not being good enough
For someone who used to be my BEST friend
I hate being held
Because the person who I want,
Will never hold me again
I hate not hating him
Because that is all I want to do
I hating waiting for his phone call
That I know will never come
But most of all I hate the way
He never put me first
The way he acted like I would always be there
Even though he didn't want me to be
I hate his jealous streaks, the way he always thought
I was out doing something wrong
I hate how I miss his laugh and his smile
And the way I would miss him 5 minutes
After leaving his house
I hate needing him to talk to
And not knowing what to do
And I hate wanting to hurt him
Just as bad as he hurt me
And I hate not being able to run to my
Best friend and cry because I am hurt
Because my best friend is the one who
Caused all of my pain and sadness
And I hate the way he said he wold love me forever
But then forgot to tell me that forever
Was coming to an end.