Where's the pain

The pain is meant to hurt
but it feels nice
i am outside my body
looking at my self
what am i doing
each dig gets deeper
i try to scream to stop
but only breath comes from my lips
another dig and the blood comes
where's the pain
it feels like relief
so i dig more unable to stop
i try to shake this person in front of me
nothing gets through
digging more and more at her body
why cant i stop
where's the pain
please make it hurt
then maybe I'll stop!