Everything

I look up at the ceiling each night in my bed,
Staring and thinking about everything,
Wondering if i do something will it change anything,

I'm so confused bout everything,
In my life at the moment,
When will this feeling change?
Will i go through life being confused and scared everyday?

It seems as if i wasn't meant to be here,
This isn't my time,
It would make it so much easier if i wasn't around,
Other people's lives would be better,
I feel i just make things worse,

Get me out of this place i call home,
I cant take it no more,
I have been heartbroken,
My soul has died over and over,
I have been betrayed,
I have been used,
I have been abused,
But after all this,
I come out stronger,
Every time,

It teaches me not to trust,
Not to love so easily,
Not to let anyone in,
So no-one can touch this injured heart of mine,

All i ask for is for this pain to ease,
For everything to become clearer,
I don't want to be here,
For when human kind damages itself,

Everything i want and need is never there,
So why should i wait,
Its time i move on in this world,
I hear it calling to me,
So I'm going to follow that voice i hear,
And follow my dreams,
To find out everything there is to in this world,

I hope we meet again,
In the future,
When the time is more appropriate,
For our situations.

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Hey this poem i just randomly wrote as it was the spur of the moment so if it don't make sense to you sorry its just i understand it, i just written whatever came out of my head, thanks xx