Stupid anorexic

by amber   Oct 3, 2007


Alone in my room
Check if I am thinner
Sometimes I throw up
Usually I just skip dinner

I can't remember when
I stopped feeling thin
But I won't forget the day
My ribs pierced through my skin

Wearing a weak smile
Holds the lies inside
Carrying around a secret
Desperately I hide

A secret I tell no one
Because it's all I've got
Secretly I'm starving
Even when I say I'm not

And I can't help but wonder
What brought me to this state?
Do I deserve this torture?
Is all of this my fate?

Sometimes I try to pray
But I feel to ashamed
I do it to myself
I should just be blamed

When people start to notice
I know I have to lie
I don't know how to answer
When they ask me why

I don't know why I do this
The hunger I go through
All the pain I suffer
I don't know what to do

"You are way to skinny"
"Why don't you just eat?"
These are all the things
They constantly repeat

I wish they would just stop
They don't know how it feels
Sometimes I just want to
Swallow all moms pills

Everyone always says
I'm so skinny I'll disappear
What if I bottled out
And confirmed everybody's fear

It's probably not a fear
No one would even care
They probably wouldn't notice
That I'm no longer there

Stupid anorexic
I am nothing more
Starving all I know
It's all that I'm good for

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  • 15 years ago

    by Ashley and Katie

    Wow..thats really beep. i kno how you feel. i HATE what i put myself thro and yet i still do it...ya kno? well im always here if you need to talk...im a good listener and i dont judge

  • 16 years ago

    by EmOToMbOy13

    I agree with others.
    it reallly....wow this is beautifully writen ever i read!
    5/5
    i wondering if you would check out my poems.

  • 16 years ago

    by Jenni Marie

    This is beautifully written. the emotion and depth you put into this piece is amazing, easily felt by the reader. the flow is good throughout the piece and the imagery you painted created very vivid pictures for me. "Why don't you just eat, is what they constantly repeat" << how i loved those lines. so much power and intensity and sadly i can relate. you did a wonderful job with this.

  • 16 years ago

    by HaileyHelen

    SAD!!!! but suoper true! the life so many go thru added it 2 mii favs!

  • 16 years ago

    by xxSuicidalxx

    Awesome poem, really well written, I was anorexic and it sounds like how an anorexic feels. Really heartfelt, hope this isn't happening to you....

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