Crying

I just want to cry
theres nothing left to say
mommy dosnt care no more
daddy went away

i just want to run
run into a place
where not all guys are scum bags
and my life is not a waste

i want to be dead
just leave this world forever
im not afraid of suicide
but i know it will hurt heather

i wish that i could cry at least
but my tears are all dryed up
i wish i wasnt numb like this
so i could feel my cuts

i look in my mirrior
and my fist starts to rise
i dont want to see her
to look in her eyes

i reach for my razor
and head for my wrist
screaming to my self
"how the f.u.c.k. could he do this"

to blood drips slowley
but i want more
so take a few pills
and drop to the floor

i start to scream out
"this isnt fair
you did this to me"
i rip out my hair

my mommy comes in
and kicks me out the way
"get up your pathetic"
but i begg her to stay

i need you help mom
i need you to care
she said
hunny i cant you
get the f.u.c.k out of here