Escape one way not the other.. (kinda long)

I'm crawling threw the fire deep within
To struggle to breath that fresh air
Taking in strides I'm being drawn in
I yell out but no one hears me
my body burning and turning to dust
i'm fading like the clothes on my back

It feels as If the words I speak
Are just words not taken seriously
I look at you and pour my heart out
Hopeing you'd help me threw
But every day that goes by
I'm growing more weak inside
I'm losing hope and I'm hating more

I don't wanna be the one to die
For you to see whats inside
I no longer see a way out
Of this day by day play
Of endless words spoken and ignored
I could beg on both knees
In hopes you'd see that I'm dieing for more

I'm dieing to live and to feel something real
I'm so numb inside I don't even care
I swear to god If another person mentions a certain topic pertaining to this god damn poem I will snap.

If you where in my position you wouldn't say half the stuff you do,
Don't say you understand
Because I know you don't

No one does,
It's like being born with no life plan
It's like living in an endless pit of nothing
Waking up in the morning thinking things will be different
And at the end of the day they are still the same
Don't pitty me or feel sorry
I'm just me and this is my life

One day, I won't be here for you to use me
One day, I'll be free from the pain
One day, I will wake up with my own life
that I dream of today...

maybe that one day will be the day that I die...