Lost

Within these blood shot eyes i feel a tear welling
a shot to this heart so clean without swelling
i hold this gun, flip it left and right
till the vision of your smile is clearly out of sight
whisper what have i done, scream what have i lost
knew this life did not come with out a cost
but this cost so big, one thing i did not want to lose
but gone in the warping of a tongue, so wheres the booze
hold it to your lips till th bottle draws empty and your brain screams for help
drifting along the bottom of this black sea like a piece of kelp
lost in the days i could never keep track
my heart has run no reason to pack
let the light shine threw the Windows and the wind blow you threw my door
so you cant take this aching hearts unbearable sore
i can not figure why I'm at the temple with this gun
this slowly fought battle could not be won
it's true what the say, this life is nothing but a con
you never know what you have till its gone