I cry at night

I cry at night
to release the pain inside of me
the tears blur my vision
so I can no longer see
the horrid signs in front of me

telling me
all I am is another basket case
shunned from everyone
loser in every race
with no one to help my case

I cry myself to sleep
in the most dreadful of nights
but my dreams are no better
my world is full of fights
running blindly in these endless nights

I try to write
all my pain away
but empty words do not tell
how my hope does not stay
and my heart breaks away

I die each night
when i close my eyes in bed
I wish for them never to open
I wish I were nothing but dead
I wish I lay forever in my buried bed.