Nightmeare

This feels like a nightmare i cannot escape, these iron bars keeping me from all my desires,my emotions spill out every time i hear her name,i hate her so much,i hate the way she looks,i hate the way that she never actually sen her life go anywhere,i hate the fact that she is never here....i hate that she is with other guys.i hate that i don't know what the hell she is out doing!
maybe she is out prostituting, or maybe she is selling meth on the side of the road with all of those people who act as though they don't care about anything in there life...i hate that you have gotten locked up so many times,i hate that every time i hear your name i got slightly more insane...i know that its not totally her fault for all of this,i know that she might not ever be able to stop but i just wish that she can actually be here..with my sister i wish she would not lie to my face all the time...i wish that every time she wanted to lie she could just think about all the shit she has put us through.i can never trust a guy because of her,i cannot look people in the eyes and when i do all i get is a cold feeling that they might hurt me,lie to me...people say when they look into my eyes it is as though they can see my life story...nothing can ever compare to the pain i feel right here.your locked up but not for long,those iron bars cannot keep you for long,they cant keep you from doing all this stuff again...you did me wrong...and i cant trust you...when you get out i know you will be back,you will be back to haunt and hurt us...you lie to us and steal from us AHHH I HATE YOU so much my eyes get all fired up when your name is mentioned but i still don't love you one bit!don't come back expecting this to be all good as if we will forgive you for your sins....those iron bars will not keep you from all this again..it will not hold all of the hurt you have and the hate you have for others behind them..i know you hate me too but i don't give a fuc?
i hate you too so just stay away this is my nightmare i will never over come