Alex, My Love

7 months have passed
since i first saw your face

i used to think it was so simple
i thought i was just going through a phase

when you left my heart cracked
and i knew there was nothing simple about it

i fell in love with you
the day you walked away

i tried to hide the pain i felt
behind my happy mask

but it ate at me from the inside out
it controlled my thoughts and i have to ask

were you happy without me
did you ever think about me, about us

did you ever wonder how i was
did you ever miss hearing my voice

then came the day i found out
you had found someone else

that day tore my heart apart
i was the one who loved you like no one else

the thought of her hands on you
it drove me mad

on my knees screaming out
needing what we once had

what had i done wrong
why had this happened

i couldnt breathe for fear of seeing you
my heart you held in your hand

i ached for weeks, which turned into months
my thoughts filled with you

my hands bleed from my nails digging deep
the tears escape my face like drops of morning dew

i never thought the day would come
that you'd tell me what i needed to hear

you were so confused
your feelings hard to bear

my heart pounded at your words
the sound of your voice a soothing balm on my broken heart

you told me you cared
i shook so bad it hurt

could this actually be happening
did you say what i thought you did

did you want me for your own
a fire in my heart was lit

4 days later you were mine
i thought i was dreaming

how could this be real
do i stay or do i flee

what if it hurts again
what if i dont survive this

within my heart i found my answer
i need you, i need this

better pain than nothing at all
just hold me tight and dont let go

wrap your arms around me
i love you, you know

do you know how much i care
can you really fathom

ive never felt this way before
this isnt just a game

if i lost you now id die
the pain would eat me up

id fall apart and disappear
the deed would be done

i love you so much it hurts
so i hope to God you mean this

i need you forever
i love you are three little words that have so many meanings

i trust you with my soul
dont break me in two

you have everything i have to give
theres nothing else i can do

Alex, my love
do you understand what i am saying

without you id be lost
in crimson dust id be laying...