The meaning of my life

Enthralled by the beauty of nature
Bewildered by the meaning of life;
Loosing hope at every step
As my life resides at the edge of the knife.

Seeing illusions of a happy end;
Dreams are what keeps me alive,
Trying to survive in the world of sins
Into the abyss as I dive.

Hope to see a new beginning
Hope to find a better place,
Hope one day I too will live
A life with no malaise.