You told me we needed to end this
that we weren't the same anymore
just pretending to be happy
drowning in our own sadness
The doctors office was small and dark
filled with broken toys and memories
he says it will take some time
to get rid of everything
to get rid of you and useless memories
The first one to disappear is mom
the smoke stained shirt and the blood shot eyes
hiding under the table is the coward of a child
I used to be
begging for mommy to stop yelling
wishing to angels that don't exist
the memory blurs
until mom turns into
the monster she was
My second memory is set at the school dance
a placed filled with half filled kisses
and empty words
I sit on the floor all by myself
no one wants to dance with damaged goods
the faces of the demons appear
teasing me to no end
vile words spewing from their mouths
the tears are slipping down
just like before
the demons faces leave
showing nothing on the head
but white skin of death itself
My last memory is of you
walking in the park
at night looking at the stars
I can still feel the tears and the warmth of you hand
"You know it's not that bad,losing your memories"
I still cry the crystal drops of my soul
"I don't want!"
I yell
I want to remember everything
no matter how bad
the scene start to light up
with artifical light
destorying everything in my mind
I close my eyes and
wake up in the chair
the doctor looking over me
the warmth of your hand still on my skin
as I slowly fade away
