You realise it's over

The day came and went,
It came quickly
There were no signs
There were no hints
The day came and went

Sunrise was a pleasure
Sunset was another story
I leapt with joy as morning came about
I cramped in pain as night unfolded,

My heart was full
Love filled my veins
My heart became empty
My veins pulsed with pain

I struggle to understand
Wishing that day was no more
Dreaming all had been another story
A story not belonging to me

I lay at night cold finding nothing to my left
I turn and twist but no heat to be found
I huddle into a ball to find comfort on my own
I pull the covers wishing sunrise would come about.

I wake to find no change
The pain is still apparent
It kills my heart to realise a dream it was not,
I cuddle up in an old shirt
Clutching at straws hoping for his smell
I realise no matter what he has made his choice,

I sleep with some of his smell
Comfort for a second it brings
The realisation carries more than I can tell
Sunrise is about a mess I feel

Day after day is a struggle
I see and know hes there I cant reach no matter what I try
I try to be strong I see life from another angle
I try to be wise but alas it does me no laughs

I finally talk to myself
I realise what was meant to be
Seeking was never meant to be
But me being me I realise I am better than he.