Emotions I Hope Will Stay

The teacher speaks
but no words are heard
for my brain is still filled with him
and those hours of conversation
we yesterday shared

I want that day to repeat itself
for those feelings I felt
had been gone for so long
but now are back
and hopefully to stay

I will not deny
that I love to feel this way
for these feelings
are a great and drastic change
from my past emotional state

I am not proud of it
but the past I cannot alter
though with each moment
of remembrance
I wish I could change
that depressing girl I used to be
into a girl more like the present me

though I know she will one day be
the girl I am today
with the emotions that returned
and hopefully are here to stay