Got to move on

It is so hard to forget him ,
and everyday that goes by I miss him more.
I find myself wondering if he is happy ,
and if what he said was true to that I will never be sure.

I would have stood up to my partner ,
if I felt like the one I love was by my side.
But instead I am still here and unhappy ,
and it is like the man I love dissappeared to hide.

People will tell me I have got to move on ,
bury my feelings and get on with my life.
I do agree with that because I know it is true ,
but the only way I feel I can do that is to cut my heart out with a knife.

Why did he say he loved me ? ,
if he never even meant a word he said.
If all he wanted was the thrill of an affair ,
why could he not have choosen someone else instead ?.

All that keeps me here are my kids ,
for them I live and will do anything.
I hope in time my heartache will be gone ,
and light at the end of the tunnel my future will bring.