You Turned Out Different

I closed my eyes
and you were there
I turned around
and saw that stare

The stare that haunted me
through the night
and through my dreams
and various sights

Not able to forget
your bloodshot eyes
as you lifted your fist
to my delicate side

The sound was piercing
and the noise was great
as if you determined
my early fate

The blows got harder
as I took one to the chest
and I heard a crack
but did not show distress

The pain overbearing
but not like a knife
just knowing it was you
I wanted to end my life

How could I trust
such a merciless soul
I thought it was love
but it was just a black hole

How could you not see?
how you hurt me
not just on the outside
but emotionally

I'm waiting on the day
where you will come back
to apologize and admit
that love, you lack

I'm waiting for you
but not how you think
no longer dreaming
about seeing you next week

But no,
I'm waiting to see the old you
the one before this
who made me feel new

The man who whispered
right to my heart
about how our love
would never part

But you don't see
the damage you've caused
you've made me build
my thicker walls

How could you not see?
how you hurt me
not just on the outside
but emotionally