Time is ticking away

Day in and day out you see me smile
Day in and day out i look fly
Day in and day out i make everyone laugh
Day in and day out i think about the past

You call me pretty
You call me fun
You call me lucky
You call me most of the things im not

Every single day i walk around with a mask
Every single day i fake and i break
Every single day takes effort through it to make

Its a typical behavior of a broken soul
Its a typical way of us hiding what we hold
Its a typical way to take the pain of your mind
Its a day job and at night we cry

Daytime is fake
At night is when the real pain center takes , crushing your brain with pressure that pops your veins
Depression sucks , its takes away everything you loved

Depression is caused ,when something you love is lost , when someone takes away your pride when someone abuses you bad. When you go through so much , you carry a burden that no weight can match. A burden within it hurts to even breathe.

I wish i could talk , about all the things that happened to me
I wish i could release all the pressure within
I wish that talking would take it all away
I wish all the tears i cried would wash a percentage away
I wish that talking and crying would be the cure , if that was the case
I would not be writing to you
Talking calms it down like taking Advil if you must
Crying don't do nothing but increase the pressure and pain until you're weak and fall asleep

Sometimes i wonder, why i even live
Sometimes i wonder and don't know where to begin
Sometimes i wonder how did i get this far

I feel worthless , i feel so scared
Therefore with you this i must share

I'm good at hiding , all this pain inside
I tried talking a bit about it but thats against my pride
I cry all the time with screaming pain , i wonder how long till i snap
My clock is ticking away.