Suicidal Tendencies

The thought of death seems nice
to be free without myself with just one slice
to be able to be myself without feeling bad
to be able to be free of feeling sad

suicidal I guess you'd call me
one who wants only to be free
as impermanant a position as it is
nothing can be worse than feeling like this

Just caught in some thing that feels so wrong
but feels so right, sadness held long
I want to let it go, just get away
allow myself to be free to face another day

if only my mind would let me go
to do this thing I need to know
I know it's wrong and bad to do
but you don't understand, it's hard, it's true...

I've thrown myself so far away
I need to find that brighter day
if it is in another life so be it
I am among those that really mean it

suicide is cowardice, I know it's true
but I can't stand constantly trying to break through
I'm lost and lonely and making it worse
throwing myself farther with much more force

I long to say goodbye so I can leave
to finally be happy, free, able to be releived
just to get out of here, the easy way out
just one more thing i don't have to be about