You waited for my answer,
But I just couldn't speak.
I knew that once I said those words,
I'd completely be weak.
Marriage was not something
That I was ready for,
I just never thought of it,
I figured I'd never open that door.
But with you, it was so different,
I was willing to give it all.
Because deep in my heart I'd known
That you would never let me fall.
You cared about my feelings,
And you cared about my heart,
You promised you would love me no matter what,
And you wouldn't tear me apart.
I'd finally found a good one,
But now I was going to let you go.
What the hell was wrong with me?
I just didn't know.
"It'll be ok, I promise," you said.
And I just couldn't reply.
I couldn't force myself to speak
And I had no idea why.
That day was the day I let you go,
And I miss you now more than ever.
Because for some reason I thought
That we would last forever.
Now I see you with that girl,
And I can't help but think, Damn, she's got the perfect man,
And even though I still wanna be friends,
I try to avoid you the best I can.
I wanted you to be happy with me,
But I wasn't happy with myself.
And when you DID end up loving me,
I didn't know what to do with myself.
You were the one who took my heart,
But I'm the one that broke yours.
And now is the day that I apologize,
For all the pain I had you endure.
So this is it, I'm sorry.
Never will you have to deal with me again.
But always remember, I love you,
Love always, Your Old Lover and Friend.
