You say you love me

You say you love me, you say you care for me. Yet you go for Austin and pretend like i dont notice. You tell me that you 2 have said you just want to be friends. we have been together for 1 year and in 6 days you come to the conclusion that you no longer want to be with me. How can you do this to me? i would love to know how you really feel about me.. You gave me all the notes saying you will always be there for me and that you would never love anyone else. I was willing, no wait i am willing to give you anything. Because my love for you is so overpowering. i would give my life for you. You have so much power but you choose to leave me. I cant take this pain. I dont want to start drinking again, it makes me feel better but it doesnt make me better, the only thing that will make me feel better would be to know that i have you and that you have me. But that will never happen again, and i will not accept that... but i guess we can be friends in your words... Everytime i talk to you i will think of what we had. of what we were, and when i see you with someone else it will take all my power not to kick their ass. I love you and i always will, or for how long i have left to live. I love you Adrianna Nicole DeBoer