Cant die yet

I went to school today
Two hours too early
All the teachers said hey
And flashed their white and pearlies

I tried for a smile
But it was so hard
So I hid for a while
To hide that Im scarred

I came back out
And people were here
I wanted to shout
But I break into tears

I run away again
Fight the urge to scream
My pain the tears drain
Out the blood does stream

Then the teacher found me
Curled up on the floor
I pretended she I did not see
Cause I was feeling so sore

Im sorry youve seen what
I look like by myself
Im weakest when I cut
I tried to put my pain on the shelf

She looked like she never
Saw anyone that hurt
Noone that would sever
Just to hit the dirt

She took me by the arm
And led me to her room
She aksed me why I harmed
Did I want my doom

I looked at her and said
With conviction in my voice
I wish I was dead
But its not my choice

I have people who need me
And until they dontt
I will not be fully free
And so die I wont

**no where near my best but and help or comments would be greatly appreciated**