Ever Wonder Why

Ever wonder why I said
I didn't like you at all
Ever wonder why I was reluctant
To answer the phone when you'd call
I let you in my heart slowly
And I tried to wait to see
If you were being real
And if you were the one for me
Ever wonder why I broke things off
Why I tried to avoid you
Ever wonder why I was afraid
To jump in head first too soon
I couldn't let us go any further
I was incapable of trust
I just needed to protect myself
And take a break from us
Ever wonder why I took a chance
In taking you back
Ever wonder how
I would do something like that
It's true that I had feelings for you
But I had been hurt once before
And I knew that if you hurted me too
My heart would not be able to take anymore
Ever wonder why
I fell so hard
Ever wonder why
I let it got that far
I was naive and hopeless
In need for something you offered willingly
But in the mist of all that bliss
I was scared you'd take advantage of me
Ever wonder why I didn't say I love you
When you first said it to me
Ever think I led you on
Or why you just couldn't see
That I really did love you
I just wanted to hide it
But then you convinced me, you were true
And I could no longer deny it
Sometimes I wonder
If I had known
And if I had followed my instincts
I would have left you alone
Ever wonder why I didn't want to trust you
With my heart, my happiness, my life
Did you ever stop and wonder why
Well so do I
But then I look back to see
That I had a feeling this would all go wrong
So I don't wonder why anymore
Because inside, I knew the reason all along

By: Becca (20) (c) 2008