Where Did I Go?

If this is what life is to me
Why am I not amazed?
Every moment seems a waste of breath
I try to convince myself it's just a faze

But my mind flows with whatever I see
And somehow it's just not right
Suddenly it's hard to breathe
I push for another to end this day, hide tonight

I pull people in that seem to want to leave
My love is all cried out
People start to walk away suddenly
And I push everyone down

I close my eyes and pray for a another chance
To see where I started out this time
To find out how to get out of this trance
To find my way back in line

I drink my tears through my face
And start to wonder where did I go?
I break in pieces, just to hold myself in place
Wherever I am, this isn't my home