I dont even know

The day i remember...isn't what I want
I lost something I tried so hard to keep
But now all I think of is him
As tears run down my cheek

I lay my head on his chest
I thought I loved him so
I believed he loved me too
But those feeling I will never know

He kissed my neck
As soft as he could be
Looked me in the eyes
And said he loved me

He pulled his body unto mine
Kissed my lips so gently
I could feel his breath on my neck
As he whispered "we're meant to be"

He asked what I wanted
I said I didn't know
He knew I wanted him
So he decided to go

He kissed me again
And asked me if I was ready
I told him more then ever
He made me so happy

He was slow and kind
As he took of my pants
He caressed my body
With his baby soft hands

He pulled himself on me
And asked me if it hurt
Tears formed in my eyes
And I tugged at his shirt

I whispered no
I promise I'm fine
baby I love you
I'm so happy your finally mine

and hour and half went by
but it still went so fast
that moment I knew was sure
I knew it'd forever last

we lay for what seemed like forever
My head softly resting on his chest
he told me how you loved me
how I was different form the rest

I thought I loved him
I didn't even know
I want to regret it
but I still cant make the memories go

I think of that day all the time
Then the stupid things he'd do
After that he only made me cry
...I really wish instead he was you