When Won't It Hurt Anymore?

Why do people create external pain for themselves when it hurts so much inside?
Because they know external pain doesn't last, life's shown them that
It's the pain inside they don't know how to deal with
So they create a pain for themselves that they know how to handle
They slice and drag and poke and rip until the pain outside is greater than the pain within
The cycle continues day after day and each time a little bit more is required before the hurt inside recedes

But a day will come when there's nothing you can do to stop the sadness from eating you alive
Try as you might but now you know
You pick up the gun, the one that's been calling your name the whole time
You point it at the place that hurts the most
Ironic how it seems to be the place your heart once was
You close your eyes and pull the trigger, so happy to know how much it won't hurt anymore.