Letting Go

There's nothing left to do
I cant stand the pain.
Cutting is the only way out.
There's nothing else left to gain.

I pick up the knife beside my bed.
Todays the day I shall relieve this stress.
I've already written goodbye notes.
Now this is the one final test.

My hand is trembling, my eyes filled with tears.
Soon everything will finally be over and done.
I cut my wrist, away from the vein.
Afraid of what might happen, afraid to go on.

One cut after another, I just cant stop.
Deeper and deeper the next few come.
Finally I feel the vein being cut.
All of a sudden my arm goes numb.

I cant see a thing.
The room is spinning.
My head feels light.
Once again I'm not winning.

I close my eyes.
I let fate take over.
All the pain is gone.
Relieved forever.

You saw me each day smiling, keeping my true self inside.
But now I'm in a better place where I have no pain to hide.
I'm sorry I ccouldn'tbe what everyone wanted me to be.
I'm sorry that I put you all through this misery.
How I've felt for the longest time, Everyone now knows.
Goodbye to everything, I just needed let go.