Personal Reflections. . .

Since there is no use for self pity
And there's no use for tears
I've wept and mourned through poetry
for far too many years

I write about the pain within
whatever's on my mind
As always words just flow
Emotions left behind

But what's a guy like me to do?
There's no one there for me
I've lived alone and died alone
In solitude and misery

I say that I have died within
Perhaps thats not all true
But I'm about as much alive
as the love I get from you

You went to greater distances
Than what my mind forsaw
I gave you all you asked me for
Even if that broke the law

And then you go and do this, babe
you ditch me and my heart
And leave me hanging by the hook
That out love let start

So now you see me as a friend
And try not to see more
But I will always be inside
That boy who's dreams you tore

I won't forget the times we had
And won't think less of you
But I'll miss gazing in your eyes
And I think you will too

You've made the right decision
I stand by you all the way
But still it hurts me what you did
And that, I'll never say

I'll keep this smile on my face
This fake, now mastered grin
And slowly through the painful years
I'll die away within

I'll lose my poetry and thus
Lose contact with myself
I'll be that weird and lonely dude
Who died in complete stealth

No one will know when I have died
And nobody will care
Alone he lived, alone he died
Alone he couldn't bare

And that is how I feel right now
This place I now call home
Magnetawan is my graveyard
And my home is my gravestone