Last Words

I'm on the boarderline of death
The line of suicide
I've had alot of stress in life
With noone by my side

I've lived a life of lonliness
And loner I would be
If I had not decided to
Finally set myself free

All my life I was in love
But never was loved back
The game of love was not for me
And my heart was turned to black

I met you in september
Back then we were just friends
I thought that you were beautiful
And hoped we would transcend

But then one day I noticed it
You were avoiding me
I thought that it was over then
That it wasn't meant to be

So I went talking to your friends
To find out why
Why you've changed your views on me
'cause you didn't reply

It all turned out that it's my fault
I've said too much to you
You misunderstood my wording
And I quote Blink 182

'Don't leave me all alone
Just drop me off at home
I'll be fine, it's not the first
Just like last time, but a little worse'

But no, this time it hurts much more
But why? I do not know
This isnt my first time in love
But this time I just can't let go

I feel like just like a little child
A child with a crush
But this is unrequited love
I even start to blush

But now with you gone, and I have lost
Everyone that I cared for
I have now lost the will to live
And like I said before,

I'm on the boarderline of death
The line of suicide
I've had alot of stress in life
With noone by my side

I'm gonna slit my wrists at night
While everyone's asleep
Tonight's the night I say goodbye
And leave you all to weep

Goodbye my dearest Madelynne
I hope you live in peace
I hope you find yourself a man
Who's not a dork, like me

Goodbye, the ones who say they're friends
But really know they're not
It's nice to know you weren't there
When I needed you alot

Goodbye my parents, hope you die
And fu cking rot in hell
For what you made me live through
I cannot wish you well

I'll see ya soon, ol' brother
I know you're gonna die
From all the siggarettes and liquor
But you were a good guy

And finally goodbye to you
Whoever you may be
I hope my memories live on
And please, do not forget me

Goodbye...

I wrote this poem a year ago, back when that girl was important to me... I was going through some really rough times, and suicide was on my mind... R/R/C on this and my other poems and I'll be sure to return that favor