Twisted Mentality

My mind is playing tricks on me
events flashing by so fast of dreadful scenes
luminating illustrations of visuals forseen
is this real? can i touch it and what does it mean
lies i hope that even haunt me in my dreams
events so bright with vibrant gleams
not being able to avoid it makes me scream

Mind games flash theres nothing i could do
dreams that made me shed tears was somthing new
i saw my love dying and what a dreadful view
emprisoned by fear i couldnt move
i cried at the fact i couldnt die with you
my mind plays tricks on me and i have no clue
it hurted so bad i hope it never comes true

little by little either shattering my sanity
or just revealing a new side of me
the side of my twisted mentality
a side or twisted thoughts brought by insanity
awful sights that drool and are nothing but pretty
somtimes i dream about being in a so called blood city
where murder is fun and drinking blood makes you tipsy

i somtimes like it since i enjoy pain
scars from corroded knives cover my veins
brings back memories when my life was an open flame
days when i played with my life like it was a game
i cheated death a couple times and only i am to blame
i did it willingly and without shame
but those were the days when anger poured like rain