Anorexia ||

A porcelain creature sits quietly,
She waits and waits patiently,
Her hushed little voice goes unheard,
Under all the flesh she struggles to breathe,
Her whispering stammers and piercing cries,
Overwhelm the barrier she hides behind,
Her seductive promises tiny lies,
That she is perfect and very kind,
She will wipe all my tears dry,
While sketching out a clear outline,
Unnoticed she cast a spell on me,
Everyday I see what she sees,
She runs her finger down my spine,
As I bend in the mirror I see the jagged line,
For reasons I am not quite sure,
I smile just like before,
Wonder what I may eat today,
None, she will immediately say
No will to fight resistance wearing thin,
I hear an echo, her voice from deep within,
I am getting good at hiding from you,
I've got paper weights in my shoes,
So i don't float into everyone's view,
There's a monster eating away inside,
A force i once tried to defy,
I wish sometimes i had one friend,
Apart from the girl inside my head,
I try to build a wall of will,
To keep her still, before she kills,
Some days I'm tired and I need to rest,
To slow down the thumping in my chest,
Accusations of giving up and weakness,
If i have a bite or feast on sweetness,
Indulgence is a mortal sin,
How dare yee, you want to be thin ?