Is it enough

I always took enough to get noticed ,but never enough for you to see I needed help
I always wanted you to no that there's something wrong
Mentally in my head

I don't know what it is
The past
Or Over reaction
Maybe just worry

But I know that I messed up
I ruined my life

People hate me
People don't trust me
And people think I'm sleazy

I've changed in the last year
I've learned to say no

But I still have this feeling
To cry constantly
To sleep and think
Instead living

I want to open up
But my self confidence is gone
And I forgotten how to talk , my diction is too small
I stare out in space and learned how to block everything out

But I didn't learn how to get ride of this feeling

I know that the past is the past and the present is know and the future is then
I just care to much about what everyone else will think